Not such a frantastic life

Makeup

Lydia's POV-

"Lydia?" I faintly hear a whisper. I curiously open my eyes to find Connor standing in front of the doors, wide eyed staring at me.

"Connor? I-I thought your left me." I stuttered at the sight of my boyfriend, almost in tears.

"No. I had to. I had to come back. Before someone took my place by your side. I. I couldn't even stand the thought of that. Lydia. Plea--"

"I forgive you, Connor." I cut his sentence short.

"Wh-Why the new couches?" He asked his eyes widely scared. His eyes were bloodshot, along with mine. Had he cried again?

"The old one had. It-it had a horrible memory that I don't want to remember. Why- Why did you leave? I thought. I thought you weren't gonna come back, all your stuff was- is gone." I said shakily.

"Lydia. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I literally, wouldn't be here without you. Your dad took me in, when he shouldn't have. He paired for our beautiful house. And most of all, he gave me you. You've always done right. To and for me," Connor said, his eyes slightly teared.

"I never thought I would be saying this to someone at 17, but I love you Lydia. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone. We haven't known each other for too long, but you are the one. The one I want and need. You make me good. Want to be at least. When I was at the bar, I couldn't think of anyone but you. You were invading my thoughts. Every single one of them. "

"Conn--"

"Please. Please. Lydia. I'm an idiot. I'm an insecure idiot. I couldn't live without you. You're the reason why I stopped my drinking. When I burned the church down? I was shit-faced. When I crashed Lizzie's wedding? Shit-faced off of my ass." He confessed. I didn't know about him crashing Lizzy's wedding. Lizzy, a librarian at our school, had a gorgeous weeding. From what I heard at least.

"Connor. You shouldn't be insecure. You are my life. I know we don't do much, or I don't should PDA every time we go into public. But I do love you. And as long as we love each other, nothing will come in our way." I say nearly crying at his words. He had never opened up to me before. And neither have I. And I like this. I like us.

"Lydia?" Connor asked looking into my eyes with his perfect shade of blue ones.

"Yes?" I answer, returning his actions.

"Can I kiss you?"

"Conn--" His lips cut me short by smashing into mine. Sparks flew as soon as his perfectly sculpted lips hit mine. Connors hands moves recklessly around my body, making everything tingle. He breathed into my mouth heavily. He looked into my eyes for what seemed like the 1,000 time this week.

"Lydia, I don't want to do anything you don't want to do." He said, referring to the incident that had happened previously. I honestly haven't wanted anything more, than how much I want Connor right now. Connor and I hadn't, done it, that much. But he is still a great lover. When we had first done it, it was unmeaningly painful. I had to wash those sheets about 7 times for the blood to come out. But that was before. Hopefully it won't hurt as much now.

I grinned my hips into Connor, telling him what my mind had said seconds ago. He smiled at my attempt to be sexy and picked me up effortlessly from where I stood. My mouth couldn't resist his anymore, as they have a mind of their own tonight. Our mouths moved in sinc, passion and regret. Regret that we hadn't done this more often.

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"Is it okay here? Or in our bed?" Honestly the bed was way too far. I needed Connor then. Then and right fucking there.

"Here." I squeaked breathless from our lip-locking.

"Eager tonight?" He chuckled as he laid me back and pulled his wallet out. He slipped a condom out and tore it open in mere seconds.

"Am I the eager one here?" I teased. By the time his lips were back on mine, his pants were down and across the room. He hovered over me patiently as I clumsily took my pants off. I reached back down to take off my panties but he patted my hands away.

"I want to do it, please?" he asked nipping at my neck.

"Whatever you want tiger." I talked lowly into his ear. As I did so I felt his reaction.

"God dammit Lydia. Don't do that to me." He groaned, obviously a fan of what I had done.

"You mean this? Baby?" I teased, repeated what I had been scowled for seconds ago.

"God. Lydia Rose. I'm not kidding. Ill take this condom off and you know the consequences." He threatened. Was he the threating me by getting me pregnant?

"Ooooo. Watch out everyone bad ass Connor is coming through." I said slightly groaning his name.

"That's it." he said ripping off the condom and throwing it aside.

"We gotta get you in birth control." He said nipping at my neck.

"Okay." I groaned at his contact with my skin.

"Now I can actually feel you." he said lowering himself.