Not such a frantastic life

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"I will be back in about an hour or so." I grab my light jacket, its not that cold but it's windy. My head has been really clouded and everywhere lately, and I just need some fresh air and time to myself. From Connor, Jc, and even Suzy.

"Where are you going?" Connor asked hopping down from the kitchen counter.

"Just for a walk I will be back." Connor grabs my hand and turns me to face him.

"Fine, I will go with you." He trys to look into my eyes but I just need to go alone.

"No, Connor I need to go I will be back. Im going alone."

Good thing we live in a good neighborhood or Connor would have insisted that he come with me.

"Ma'am, will you get my ball please?" A small girl I'm guessing she is around 9 or 10. I pick the ball up and walk it over to her.

"Thank you." she speaks softly.

"No problem." I start to walk away when she calls out to me.

"Why are you walking by yourself? Don't you have any friends?"

She walks closer to me and sits on the ground.

I sit in front of her thinking of ways to explain things to a little kid.

"Well yeah I do but sometimes I just need some alone time."She just kinda stared at me.

"So you don't love them?"

"Yes I do love them but I need to be by myself at times, you know?" She rolls ghe ball to me. I roll it back, this turns into a game of rolling the ball.

"My daddy leaves my mom a lot. Does that mean he will come back." She looks at me and all I can see is sadness behind her eyes.

"To tell you the truth I don't know. Have you talked to your mom?"

Right when the would left my mouth, a tall muscular man appeared at her door.

"JADE GET YOUR ASS IN THIS HOUSE RIGHT NOW!" A large muscular ma yells from the door.

"Coming!" Turns to me," it was nice to meet you but i have to go.Bye." She leaves with one of the sadest faces i have seen in a long time. i really hope she will be okay. I continue walking. Does connor still love me? Is Jc really sorry for what he did to me? Does suzy even like me? Am i a good person? Why does my mom hate me?

i don't think that i have ever really took the time to think about, my mom a my relationship. My dad used to beat me mother when i was younger. but now im 19 almost 20 and he left my mom for Sara when i was 5. So about 15 years ago. My mom wasn't a very happy person. she was always working, and when she was home she was getting smacked around. But the plus is my dad he doesn't drink anymore he is married,has a good job and has other kids. He trys to make up his lost time with me by buying me exspensive things. But little did he know all i wanted was him as my father. After he left my mom was broken. Even though he left her for another girl, beat her and caused her so much pain, she still broke down. She wasn't the same. She got drunk every day , she didn't talk and if she did she was yelling at me.

*FlashBack*

"Lydia get here right fucking now!" My now wasted mother slurred from the kitchen.

"Coming." i walk to her and take a seat.

"You are very ugly and it looks like you are gaining so weight fat ass." I can smell the Captain Morgan on her breath. I don't say anything, just look at the ground.

"Look at me while i am talking to your stupid ass! and what you can't talk you are what, 14 you can speak they teach you that in school." The Tears start to burn my eyes.

"Im 17 mom." She looks at me with a straight emotionless face.

" you are not 17." she takes another long swig of her drink before she continues.

" Get out of my face, You look just like your fucking dad." she waves me away. I do as i am told. I run up the stairs to my room and lam the door behind me.

*End Of FlashBack*

My mom was like that until last year. She still drunk but she was clingy she didn't want me to go anywhere. EVER. Before i can ever grasp on to another thought i try to take in my surroundings. I don't know where i am. I serously can't believe that i walked this far. I pull out my phone to check the time. Of fucking course i have been walking for 3 hours it's 5:30pm. I don't know where i am so i guess i will just walk back the way i came.

"Where do you think you are going Lydia?" Two men stand over me.

How do you know my name?" I ask confused but mostly scared.

"We know a lot about you." The taller one says.

"well what do you want?" i ask rudly. They bothe looked at eachother and smile, which might i add isn't a very friendly one.

"You."

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-Connor-

"ConCon can I go outside and play please."Suzy pouts and males her eyes bug out of her little head.

"Yeah,you can but stay in the yard." I hesitate to answer. I really don't want her to go outside this late but it is only 6 so she can play for a little. I hand her a juice box and open the front door.

where is Lydia she has been gone forever. she hasn't even called yet.I pick up my phone and dial her number. straight to voice mail. where is she? is she okay. I'm scared she has never done this before.

I sit on the couch and watch. a couple episodes of the big bang theory. But as soon as I start watching it I think of Lydia. This is her favorite TV show. frequently checking on Suzy but she is was just playing in her sandbox.

I thought I told her to stay in the yard.

I get up and fling the door open.

"Suzy?" I run up the stairs to get jc. "Jc! Suzy isn't in the front yard anymore and Lydia still hasn't come home." I say breathing heavily.

"WHAT? Well call the police!" i Dial 9-1-1 while jc and i still search for suzy, just incase she is hiding.

" 9-1-1 what is our emergency?"

"My Daughter Suzy Marks and my girlfriend Lydia Rose are missing." i give the operator all of the information that she needs.

"Jc the police will be here in about ten minutes." i really can't believe this is happening.

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-Lydia-

My head hurts really bad, i push my hair out of my face. am i bleeding?i try to open my eyes but the pain is unbearable, i open my eyes but of fucking course it is dark. i feel around, I don't know where I am!

"Help!"

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