Thinking. Have you ever wondered what people would do if they knew all you secrets? I have a lot. Lately I've been coming to a conclusion about what they would think. They would hate me, think I'm crazy. I don't want that. But it just who I am people hate me either way.... I know my mask I come off too strong. Without... Without it I just am to hurt and depressed to even go anywhere. I just want to fit in have no struggle at all to make friends.. It would be better for everyone if I died. With My mask and without it I'm very hated my thoughts poor out freely it's like I have no filter which no one likes... I'm to honest if I you ask me if your ugly and I think you are I will tell you that's just who I am mask or not. And I'm sorry that's who I am I even hate myself more than anyone else could ever hate me. I know that I won't live up to the expectations of everyone around me or my own for that matter. I can't stop the thoughts every time I get insulted I want nothing more than take a razor to my skin and drugs in my blood stream. That's all I need. To be happy I mean. So I sat here typing wondering how to explain my feelings to you... I just thought.... Hoped you'd understand... That all I'm doing here is just thinking... About my feeling and how to write them down.... So do me a favor just sit and think about anything really... Just like I did... I... Just thought.... <3
