BLS #4 : Stabbed By Rose

Chapter 4 - Stress and Sad

Rose Hastington

I don't know what happen to myself these days but as the wedding day got closer my emotions is just not working well with me. These days I've been so quite and not in a mood to eat and everything.

I lost 3 kgs in a week because I'm just not eating well and not rest well. This wedding got me a headache and love is just so difficult.

Today I just decided to take a break from everything , maybe walking strolling alone at the Central Park or maybe go for a long drive.

Shutting my phone and just get ready to go. As I walked downstairs , I found the boys are at the living room. Today is full squad which means they all here , Max too.

"Are you going to the office?" Luke asked as I got downstairs , I just shook my head. Wearing my shoes and just walked out from the door.

"Where are you going?" I heard Max voice behind me and I just ignored him. I walked to my car and ready to open the door when he hold my wrist making me turn my body to him

"Fuck off Max" I said coldly not ready to look at him

"What the hell is wrong with you?" He bursted and I scoffed annoy. I pushed his hand away from mine and opened the car door but he shut it again.

"You lose weight" He stated and I ignored him

"Can you just go away Max? I'm not in the mood to argue with you today" I sighed and pushed him away slowly

"Wedding jitters? Or you don't like the fact marrying him?" He asked and I just get inside my car. I started the car and drive away , away from everything. Put my phone inside my bag completely shut down. I don't know where I'm going or what am I doing , I'm just following my heart

As I drive , tears suddenly fill my eyes and it just drops. My heart hurts , I admit it. It's like I had enough loving Max , 11 years is enough for me to suffer one side love for him. Marrying Austin will be the best decision but I don't love him.

There's so much thing inside my head and I just keep crying. I don't know what to do about this because I really hate the fact itself.

My heart hurts so much.. it's just I want to runaway , I really want to runaway from New York and just get new life start somewhere else. I have my money save up for some emergency occasion and I think this is will be a perfect time to runaway.

I stopped at a small cafe and decided to take out my phone. Turning it on and just wait for it to connect perfectly.

My eyes widen as I saw a text message from Max

Where are you?

I choose to ignore that text , it's not worth it text him back anyway. I looked up for a place with nature and just relaxing place to stay for a really quite long time before I got back to hectic work.

I wanted to go for a few months.. 2 or 3 months will be enough , need to get away from everything. I'll just left everything and go there with my money. I looked up at the internet and find Tennessee as a relaxing place , should I get there or should go somewhere far away like Brighton or London.

Brighton sounds good.. it's by the sea

Suddenly Max called me , I was quite shock about it. I rejected it but he called me again. I kept reject it until I was quite annoy by him , I decided to answer his call

"What do you want?" I asked

"Where are you?"

"None of your business" I answered coldly

"Tell me where are you Rose!" He bursted and I sighed

"Just stop bothering me Max , stop acting like you care. Go fuck another woman , I don't care" I ended the call and decided to block his number. I turned off my phone again and drive back.

I know at this time , there's no one home so I can pack a few things and just left my phone at home so no one can track me down.

As I got home , I quickly ran up to my room. Writing a message for my parents and brother. Pack a few things and I already book my ticket to London. Take a bath again and get ready fast.

Putting my phone on the table , just everything that can track me down I put it there. I take my small luggage and went out. Taking a cab and go to the airport , I'll just buy another phone at the airport so no one can track me.

I'll miss New York..

Just 4 days before my wedding , I ran away go somewhere far where no one can find me. I just need to get away from everything for awhile.

Get away from Max.. and maybe try to move on in Brighton , find a british guy. I smiled just thinking about it , I really need a new enviroment.

As I got into he JFK Airport , I quickly check in and buy a new phone. After a few hours wait , I walked inside the airplane and take off..

Goodbye New York.. I'll comeback soon or maybe not..