BLS #4 : Stabbed By Rose

Chapter 7 - Promise

Rose Hastington

Speechless

That's the word that describe me right now , Max is literally stay here. No matter how I push him away he just doesn't care. All he did was stole a kiss , sudden hug and just say sweet words.

I know this is just his way to get me back but my heart has become a pure steel right now. I hate this kind of feelings , he'll just play with me again and again.

I don't know what is he up to with all this.. but he's not going to leave and that annoys me.

"What is your purpose to come here Max? I'm tired and stressing out lately and don't add it" I sighed as I took out a bottle of milk

"I have to make sure"

"Make sure of what? I'm 25. I don't need a baby sitter asshole" I glared at him

"How many times do I have to tell you that you're mine Rose?" He hissed and I scoffed

"Yours? You never clain me as yours Max , until I almost got married to Austin" I poured the milk to the glass

"We have been like this for 11 years , Do I have to tell that everytime I meet you? You're mine and I'm yours , we talked about this Rose" What a bullshit..

"Marry me then Max , you said I'm yours so Marry me.. you wouldn't-"

"Let's get married" My eyes looked at his and I laughed sascarticly , I walking out from the kitchen

"I'm thinking about marrying Austin for real after I'm done here , don't ruin it Max. I beg you , I never want anything for you so I beg don't try to ruin this for me" I turned to him and he just can't say anything. His eyes locked to mine

"You don't like him"

"I can try to learn to love him , he's a really caring and loving guy. I'll love him , I guarantee that" I choked a little bit

"I'm a selfish guy Rose , you know me well so don't even think that I will stand still seeing you at the church marrying someone else" He said coldly

"I'm tried loving Max , I want to be love and you can't give me that" I sighed

"You begged like this because you saw Aaron , Sky and Alex settle down and you want me to settle down with you right? I'm not them Rose!"

"Then go.. I'm not asking you to be with me asshole. I'm asking you to go away and I'm letting you go.. Who says I'm going to force you to get married with me. I'll find someone else who will love me" Tears starting to fill my eyes

"Rose loo-"

"I already forgive you a thousand times for being with another woman Max , I have limit and my heart broke everytime I'm seeing you with someone else and I deserve to be happy.. You always happy for the pass 11 years and I'm the one who suffers until when I will suffer? Waiting for you is pain" I said as I'm trying to hold my tears from falling

"Okay" He suddenly said and I looked into his blue eyes

"Go back to New York.. I'll see you at my wedding" I said slowly even it's painful

"Do you know that i'm not going to stop Rose?" I sighed

"Let's just be happy with our own path Max , we hurt each other too much. You'll be happy" I tried to smile

"Do you remember about your promise Rose?" I remembered , how can I forgot? The promise that we won't leave each other no matter what. That was at my backyard as we watch the stars

"I wasn't mature at that time , I was crazily falling in love with you"

"We swore to each other Rose , do you know what I wish that day as we saw the shooting star?" He asked

"I don't want to know , please"

"Let's see how future and God decide our fate Rose , cause I know you'll always be mine. How many times you want to runaway you'll always comeback to me and that goes the same as me"

"Fate is not on our side Max , try to admit that"

"You know what Rose? You know my feelings better than anyone else but it's you who never understand"

"Just go away Max" I turned my body away from him

"I'll be waiting for you in New York , can you promise me to contact me first when you got there?" He asked and I can't answer that , my heart is in pain now

"There will no Max and Rose anymore" I said

"I'll be waiting for you Rose" I ignored him and I heard the door close. I turned to see him already gone. We both just not meant to be together , I have to face that fact. I love him , I love him with all my heart and soul but he just can't understand the pain I'm in.

Max's mother left him and his dad when he was 6 , his dad was completely ruined. Max saw how his dad suffer from that pain and he killed himself when Max turned 8. Max was broken to see his parents and he doesn't want that. He doesn't want to commit because he knows if he believe in love he will end up like his dad.

He never feel love until he met the boys , they went through a lot together so that's why Max cherish them so bad. He's close to Alex the most because they both same almost the same painful childhood.

I understand why Max doesn't want this but palying with my heart on and off for 11 years isn't enough? I'll letting him go but he just can't.

I don't know why I love him in the first place?

How about I'll just marry Austin? For real this time , I won't runaway again. Can I?