BLS #4 : Stabbed By Rose

Chapter 10 - It's Always Been You

Rose Hastington

My eyes is puffy , I cursed under my breath as I looked at it at the mirror. I sighed and quickly take a bath. I decided to go to work today , I have a pile. It's 12 in the afternoon too , I have to be quick.

Not even caring about breakfast or lunch or brunch , I walked to my car and drive to my office. Last night , I cried my heart out. Realising that I still love him is quite painful. Some of you may think this is stupid but you have to feel the pain to know how I feel.

Arriving at my office and quickly go to work. Burying myself to work is the best way to forget everything for a moment. Working my butt off until my stomach growled loudly , I looked at the time. My eyes widen as it shows 7 o'clock in the evening.

I texted Janet to asked who is guarding Max today , I don't know why I do this but it's just my heart controls it.

She told me that today is Sebastian turn to guard him. I decided to call Sebastian

"Hey" He answered

"Don't tell Max , I'm calling you!" I said quickly

"Oh hey Mr. Trone , long time no see" He played along because I know Max is awake.

"I'm out now" He said and I smiled

"How's his condition?" I asked

"Getting worse today" I closed my eyes and sighed

"What happen?"

"He doesn't talk , all he do was staring at the ceiling thinking about God knows what. He doesn't eat today and he can't recover fast because his mental health" Sebastian said and I sense a worried tone

"Can you all tell him to get back to his usual self and go sleep around again?"

"Rose , you and we all know about this. He's broken and he needs you. He can heal if you go back to him"

"I'm not going back to him" I said angrily

"I know you're hurt Rose but can you help him to get better. After he got better , I will let you leave him"

"Sebastian , he has Jennifer"

"Rose you know him well , he never got back to the same woman besides you. He loves you , he just hasn't got the memo"

"We have limits , 11 years is enough"

"You still love him Rose , that's why you call me to check his condition. Doctor inject him a medicine at 9 later and that medicine work when he sleeps so that medicine makes him sleep. Come at 9.30 Rose , check on him" He said

"I'll think about it"

"Thanks Rose" I ended the call and decided to go to the restaurant across my office. Take a way chinese and drive to the hospital.

It's 8.21 and I know he's not sleeping now. Since he hasn't eat , I'll just bring this and ask him to eat.

Arriving at the hospital and go up to the 4th floor. Walking to his room and opened the door slowly. I saw Sebastian's face light up , he smiled. I walked in and saw Max's face ligth up.

Walking to Max and set the table for him to eat. He looked at me and I just stay silent. I put his food on the table and help him to open it. Put the spoon on his left hand and I walked to Sebastian. Hugging him briefly , giving Sebastian his food and I taking out mine

"Rose" Max called me but I ignored him , my stomach growled loudly

"You haven't eat?" Sebastian asked

"No" I answered

"Rose" Max called me and I turned to him waiting for him to continue but he just stare at me. I eat my food silently so is Sebastian.

"Dude stop try-" Sebastian said and I turned to see Max is trying to get off from the bed. I put my food on the table and stand up

"Can you stop acting stupid? If it's time to eat your meals , eat it. If it's time for you to eat your medicine , eat it. Don't stupidly be quite all day and stare the ceiling like an idiot! Go heal fast so you can fuck girls again" I bursted angrily and he just stare at me

"Can you let me hug you for a moment?" He asked and my eyes widen

"I'll be outside" I heard Sebastian said and he walked out the door

"Can you come here and hug me for awhile Rose?" He asked and gestured me to come. I walked to him and stare into his eyes.

He took my hands and pulled me into a hug. He hugged me so tightly , I felt his breath on my neck. My eyes fill with tears

"I'm sorry" He said , I'm trying to hold my tears so badly

"I'm sorry for hurting you Rose , I'm sorry but I can't let you go. I need you in my life , last night I imagine my life without you. You're marrying someone else.. and even have kids with another guy. I can't let you that" He said and my tears slowly fell off from my eyes

"I've hurt you a lot , I don't know how can I heal your heart back. I left a lot of scars , I.. I don't know how to fix it. Please don't leave me , I don't have anyone else to lean on if you leave" He begged

"I promise I'll get better fast , I'll show you how much you're worth for me. I promise.. Please give me a chance okay? Don't leave me , don't move on"

"You'll just hurt me again"

"If I hurt you again , you can leave me. You can leave me and I promise I let you go" He said , He pushed my shoulder to see my face. He wiped my tears

"Give me a chance.. one more" I looked at his eyes

"Why you suddenly change?" I asked

"It's always been you Rose , from the start it's always been you but.. my past is hunting me"