To Tame the Heart

Page 9

Nakatuon lang ang pansin ko sa mga tao sa paligid ko. There are couples anywhere. Some were holding hands, eating together, arguing and cuddling.
Samantalang ako ay mag isa. In my twenty-four years of existence, I didn't have the chance to experience to be in the relationship. Though it's ironic because I know how hurt it would be when you're broken. I know what's the feeling to be loved by someone you love but the problem was we didn't had the label.

Nagpasya akong pumunta sa mall to pamper myself and also to unwind. I want my day-off well spent and this idea popped in my head.

I'm waiting for my order here in starbucks when I decided to read the book I just bought. I love reading while sipping my coffee, it's relaxing. I'm about to go when someone caught my attention. I think that woman is Agatha and she's not alone I don't know the girl she's with. I continue reading or should I say, I covered my face assuming that maybe she will recognize me but nevertheless I still did.

Unfortunately they placed in the table at my back and she's right behind me. I don't know what's holding me to stay. Agatha began to speak not in her high pitch but I'm still startled by her presence. They talk about their designers, dressess, bags and of course their shoes! Until their topic became serious and went to their business.

"Cosmos told me that Caleb bought the restaurant without S!" Agatha said

"For real? I doubt that! You know how much dedicated Caleb is when it comes to our business so why would he buy that restaurant without S?!" OA din pala ang kasama ni Agatha.

" I don't know Aliyah, I hope its not related to that girl he fell inlove with before. If I only knew that girl I would smash her face and rip it right in front of her grave! " Agatha said with anger. I feel it.

" Don't be like that Agatha we don't know the real story. I'm not saying that Tita is lying but atleast give the other side the benefit of the doubt. " Malumanay naman ang pagkakasabi ng isa kaya napatango ako sa sagot niya.

And now I'm torn between 'if she's  calm or not.

" For what? You knew how pained caleb before! He became more ruthless than Tito Celius! He's not normal!" Medyo napalakas pa ang boses ni Agatha.

" And you think you're normal?" Sagot naman ng kausap niya na sa tingin ko ay napapairap na ngayon.

" Nah Demetrious are not normal! We're special! " She exclaimed!

"I'm just worried. Alam mo naman na noong siya na ang umupo ay mas dumami ang investors natin at mas lumago pa ito. I don't want him stain by some ramdom girl." Dagdag pa ni Agatha.

"Everything is right when it comes to love. You're such a bitter bitch.You guys should try to see the good sides too."

I fixed myself and get up immediately. I don't want them to feel any suspicious about me.
I went to the parlor and avail their promo it's all in one.

Instead of feeling relaxed it goes the other way around! Could it be me they're talking about back in starbucks? They seems frustrated about the girl who hurt Caleb? Ako ba iyon? Pero hindi pwedeng ako iyon dahil si Caleb ang nanakit sa akin.
This thought infuriated me so much! If I was the girl they were referring for then they don't know the whole thing! Its just that how could they feel mad at me when  they haven't hear my side?!

No one ever asked me how I was feeling back then.

Nakakainis lang kasi bakit may mga tao na sarili lang ang iniisip. Para sa kanila ang opinyon lang nila ang mahalaga. Paano naman ang opinyon ng nasa kabila? Napaka invalid lang kasi kung paano sila mag isip! At ang nakakainis ay pwedeng hindi ako ang tinutukoy nila. I'm not like this. Nakakainis! Simula ng nagpakita siya puro confusions at annoyance ang nararamdaman ko!

Gusto kong sabunutan ang sarili ko. This is so not me.

Tumayo na ako nang matapos na sila sa ginagawa sa akin. Natuwa naman ako sa kinalabasan ng ginawa nila kaya binigyan ko sila ng tip. Atleast may nangyaring maganda ngayon sa akin sa dami ng iniisip ko.

Papunta ako sa department store ng makita ko na naman si Caleb na may kalampungan sa isang kilalang boutique.

The nerve of him.

Hindi ko na tinuloy ang balak kong bilhan ang kambal ng damit dahil sa nakita ko. Nagpupuyos man ako sa galit ay pinili kong kumalma at dahan-dahan kong tinahak ang daan palabas.

Sa susunod na magiging sweet siya sa akin ay hindi ko na siya paniniwalaan pa! Ibang iba na siya sa nakilala ko, hindi na siya ang dating Caleb na minahal ko! Mabuti nalang at hindi ako nagpakita ng  kahit na anong emosyon mula dito kundi nagmukha akong kawawa. Bakit kailangan niya pa magsalita ng mga kung ano ano na magpapagulo sa isip ko. Ano ba talaga ang kailangan niya sa akin? Kung makapag dala siya ng mga date niya doon pa sa restaurant and take note! Iba't ibang babae pa! Parang ipinapamukha niya sa akin na hindi lang ako ang babae!

Naghihintay na ako ng taxi dahil nawalan na ako ng gana. Kailan kaya sila mawawala sa landas ko? I can't wait for that day!

Pumara na ako ng taxi at sinabi ang address ko nang may humabol pa at sumakay...

What's next to ruin my day?

"Excuse m--Caleb?! Anong ginagawa mo dito?! Nauna ako dito!" I hissed.

Sa halip na sagutin ako ay minanduhan niya ang driver na kung saan ako bababa ay doon din siya.

The taxi driver seems reluctant about it but when Caleb says he can triple the price or even pay him 5 times bigger than the usual fare, he nodded eagerly.

Hindi man lang niya ako tinanong kung gusto ko ba.

"What?! Manong ako nalang ang bababa!" utos ko sa driver

"Just drive"

"I hate you for being that bossy!"

"I just want to make it up to you in any possible way." Trying his self to calm down.

"What's for? If it something about the past, I'm over that"

"Of course you do, you have someone's to lean on while me? I'm left alone but yeah past is past. " He sarcastically answered.

"What do you mean by that huh? Are you accusing me for something I don't know?" I retorted

"I did?" He asked me back.

That's it! I'm done for this  day! Humalukipkip ako at tumingin sa labas having a little arguments with him is tiring. I had enough for this day.

Hindi pa siya nakapunta sa bahay namin noon kahit na madalas kaming magkasama. Kapag hinahatid nila ako ay parati niyang tinatanggihan ang alok ko na papasukin siya. ang katwiran niya noon ay masama daw tingnan para sa aming dalawa kapag pumasok siya doon. He's so matured that everything he says is always has a point.

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa si mama kapag nakita niya akong may kasamang lalake dahil never ko pa naman natry magdala. Hindi ako yung tipo na kapag may nanliligaw sa akin ay papayagan ko silang sunduhin ako sa bahay. I want it reserved for my future. Sabado ngayon kaya panigurado nandoon ang kambal. Kapag titingnan ko naman siya'y tataasan niya lang ako ng kilay. Determinado talaga siyang sumama. Ugh