You Are The One: Book 1

Chapter 25: Won't Let Her Go Ever Again

Chanyeol:
Everyone looked in direction at her, but...pituful. She didn't know they were looking at her, until she noticed and looked at us. Suho's face was in shock. Our manager even stopped talking and stared at her. She looked at them, worried. I can say she wanted to ran away. Our manager sighed and head to her, he grabbed her hand and dragged her to us, she was scared by some reason.
Noona... "Baekhyun said getting up from the couch we were sitted on and head to her"
She looked down. Then he placed his hand on her cheek, lifting her face to look at him, he smiled and hugged her. Xiumin and Lay did the same, they were all sniffing while hugging her. Paul stood up too and head to her. Keyla stared at her, with a wierd look, then she ignored her.
I'll leave now, nice to see you again guys. "She said bowing"
Wait! "Our manager said"
Noona, are you going to come back? "Sehun asked curious"
Yeah, he's right! You should join us. "Sofie said chuckling"
Keyla stared at her, like if she wanted to kill her. Why that look in her eyes?
What happened to you? "Our manager asked"
I...won't talk anout that. "She said looking at the girls" I'll leave now. "She said leaving"
But noona...wait. "Chen said walking a few steps with her but she left"
So selfish. She should explain us why she's still alive. "Mary said and the girls chuckled"
Yeah that's right. By the way, she- "I cut Yoly's sentence"
Shut up! Just shut up! All of you! Shut the fuck up! "I shouted standing up"
Woah! Oppa! Calm down! "Yoori said"
Be quiet! You guys are really something! You are asking for explanations of what happened when I'm supposed the one to need one! "I said serious"
What you mean Chanyeola? "Lay asked"
They told me she commited suicide. "I said trying to calm down" They even gave me proof of her blood.
Wait...her blood? Where did you guys took that blood from? "Kai asked serious at the girls"
And why isn't she with you all? She ignored Paul. "Suho said serious, trying to look for a point"
By any chance?...No, they won't ever do such thing to Keyla...Could they...
Why aren't you all responding? "Our manager asked to the girls"
They all looked at me and Yoori looked down.
Do you know something that we don't? "I asked in a calm voice"
Actually we- "Rae cut off Paul's words"
Yah. Don't. "She whispered"
Don't what, Rae? "Xiumin asked crossing his arms"
I took a big breath and sighed. I came out from the lobby and head to my apartment. I could see a backpack with clothes on the couch, I also could see some pills on the floor. I got scared, there was also a glass of water on the table with more pills. I started gasping fast and low and walked to the room. My heart felt relieved when I saw her taking some stuff. Wait...packing some stuff?
Yah...what are you doing? "I asked looking at her confused"
She was kneeled down, she noticed me and stood up, she was tearing up.
I think it's btetter for me to leave. "She said heading to the living room"
Wait... "I walked after her" What? Are you going to leave now? "I asked chuckling"
It's the best...please...don't make this more difficult... "She whispered"
She was going again to the room to pick up some stuffs but I grabbed her wrist.
Let go. "She said pushing me away"
Don't leave...You can't...leave me again... "I said serious, holding back my tears"
What you want me to do?! I can't be here! "She said in a loud voice" You wouldn't understand!
Then explain it to me! "I shouted" You told me...that you didn't want to hide anything from me. "I said trying to calm down my tone"
Forget about what I said! "She said" Think that I was having second effect because of those pills!
Are you crazy? Or are you just pretending to be? "I asked in a whisper"
She slapped my face. I think I crossed the line a little bit...
You are a bastard. "She whispered with tears" Do you think this is easy to me?...You only think of yourself.
Yah! Wait! I am not the one who is thinking of myself! "I shouted" Instead of leaving you should at least explain! Or... Do you have anyone else than me in that place where you spend almost the whole night feeling a drunker's little friend? "I asked in a whisper"
She looked at me with her eyes wide opened.
Wae? Do you think I didn't know? "I chuckled with tears" I also know you and the dead guy had a relationship, until he died.
She wasn't responding. Stupid Chanyeol, I didn't want to loose her again, but this time...I did crossed the line.
Yah...Keylana...Mianhe, I didn't- "she cut me off with another slap"
I regret the day... I came here and met you, Chanyeol. "She whispered with lots of tears" No one ever...hurted me like you just did.
Some minutes passed...and I was still looking at her.
If I'm only thinking about myself...then why are you here? "I asked" Haven't you been thinking that I brought you here for your own good?
Why?! You want me to leave? "She shouted" Okay then! "She head to the kitchen and grabbed a knife"
Yah, what are you doing? "I asked when she placed her knife on her wrist" Yah! Don't! Are you crazy?! "I shouted grabbing her hand and taking the knife away" Don't do this! "I shouted"
I hate you Chanyeol! "She shouted crying"
I don't wanna loose you! "I shouted as I grabbed her both wrists and looked at her" I don't...wanna loose you. "I repeated" You think you're hurting me, but you're wrong. You're hurting yourself. "I said with tears" Stop this. "I sighed  looking at her eyes"
She started crying and placed her face on my chest, crying. I placed my arms around her back and hugged her. After some minutes later, when we were already calm, I wanted to talk with her. But she spoke before me.
Mianheyo...I didn't mean to shout at you. "She said looking down" Or slapping you.
Ani. I'm the one who must be sorry. "I looked at her while she was laying on the wall, thinking, and I was sitting on a chair" I shouldn't have said those horrible words to you.
She chuckled and smiled.
I think you wanted to let them go, didn't you? "She asked looking at me"
Kind of. "I whispered looking at her"
When I said that, my heart started to beat fast. The way she looked at me, her smile slowly dissapeared. I looked at her eyes, serious. Then I fast got up from the chair and placed my lips on hers pushing her body against the wall, holding her arms. She was trying to push me away, but I was stronger than her. She was also hitting my chest with her hands. I kept kissing her and moving my lips, in a way that I've never did before. I grabbed her hands and placed them against the wall too, holding them with my strenght. After some kiss moves, she slowly placed her hands on my hair and sliced to my shoulders. She was still trying to stop me from kissing her, but she was like giving up. I stopped kissing her and looked at her, she had lots of tears. She stared at me, confused, or even scared.
Mian... "I said lower" It's just that...It's been so long since we were like this once.
She didn't say anything, I didn't expect a word of her, really. I could understand her very well.
Don't say anything if you don't want to. "I said stepping a few steps back to give her some space" Umm...I'll go for a walk. Take your medicines.
I left the apartment after that. I was walking around the hotel, outside of it. It was so damm cold. I couldn't stop thinking about what she almost did, did she wanted to kill herself? I would die if she does that. The night was so calm and the stars were everywhere, it was like if the galaxies wanted to be seen by me. I was looking a cold lake that was infront of me, separated with some walls, I was laying my arms on them, with a serious face thinking. Then someone put a cup of hot chocolate infront of my face, I looked next to me and it was her, with a "Drink this, you'll catch a cold" look.
I chuckled and grabbed it.
You'll catcha cold. "She said while putting on my back a warm blanket"
She had also a cup of hot chocolate for herself. She stood next to me and looked at the cold lake too, she took a sip of the hot chocolate and smiled. Wasn't she angry?
It's really pretty, isn't it? "She asked looking at the lake" You can see the stars through it. "She whispered with a smile and I nod"
She placed her cup on that wall and hugged her arms, I knew she was cold. I sighed and grabbed the corners of the blanket, stepping behind her and covering her with it and also with my body, my hands were covered by the blanket, and also on her chest. She was in shock.
You'll catch a cold too. "I said looking at the lake"
There was a silent between us that I really didn't like. I sighed and covered her a little bit tighter.
Yah...I'm okay. "She said shy" I am not cold.
"I chuckled" I'm not doing it for you to get warm.
N...ne? "She asked confused turning around to face me"
I was still covering her with the blanket, and when she realized in what position we were, very close like if we were hugging each other, she gasped and tried to step back.
"I smiled and pushed her a little bit closer to me" Let's stay like this for a while. "I said" I'm cold.
I couldn't stop looking at her eyes, since we were so close. She was standing still, trying not to face me.
How long...are you going to keep looking at me like that? "She asked trying to avoid eye contact"
"I broke the glance between us and looked to the lake, still in the same position we were" Were you really going to do it? "I asked"
Do...what? "She asked"
The knife on your wrist. "I said facing her serious"
She looked down.
It's okay. "I said trying not to tear up" Just...don't ever do it again. "I said and she looked up at my eyes"
I couldn't help it. I slowly head my face closer to hers, VERY slowly. I wanted to make things right, not with pressure like I did before. My eyes were closed, but when I was about to place my lips on hers, I opened them and I saw she had watery eyes. I looked at her eyes, making eye contact, and removed my face back again, slowly. I sighed and looked down, she swallowed and looked to another place. I sighed and holded her tighter again. Then she looked again to me. I looked at her, thoughtfully. Did she still loved me like she used to? Does she hate me right now? We both had watery eyes when we looked at each other with passion. Then I slolwy head my face closer to hers, again. I could feel her hands when they grabbed the corner of my jacket, I stopped heading closer to her face and looked at her, with a "Should I do it?" face. As I was heading again my face to hers she closed her eyes and a tear fell, I closed mines too and with care placed my lips on hers. I stayed still not for long, still with my lips on hers. Then I broke it and looked at her, everything was so slowly. She looked at me, worried. Then she slowly slided her hands from my ribs following my chest and placing them to my shoulders, she placed her lips on mines. My lips were trembling so much, I wanted to cry so badly. While still having her lips on mines, I took a cracky breath, because I was about to cry, I let the blanket fall on the floor and I placed my hands on her cheeks. Following her kiss, then I slided my hand to her arms so I could grab her hand. I grabbed it and put it down with mine, while my other hand was on her neck. She was sniffing, and so was I.