My Many Mishaps

Taekwondon't

I have just done my biggest mishap yet.

I quit Taekwondo. Just like everything else I do, I fail. I quit. I walk away from passions just like old friends walk away from me.

My one (valid) skill. My one thing I didn't totally suck at. My one thing I can do better than my sister. My latest dumbass choice.

For fourteen years, I have been the worst. Not "Ugh, I am the worst." but "LAURYN! WHY CAN'T YOU BE MORE LIKE YOUR BABY SISTER!?"

I'm seventeen, and my little sister tops me at everything. EVERYTHING. There is nothing I can do better than her. NOTHING! I'm the first born, but last to grow.

I'm:
The dud egg.
The runt of the litter.
The confused miscarriage.
The failed abortion.

Except when it comes to Taekwondo. I know my sister could do it better than me. She could surpass my level in half the time I did.

I have been, and always will be the worst. Always.

So why try? Why fight a constant losing battle? Why try to surpass the one you can't beat?

Why try to change what is destined to happen?

You don't. Why is that? Because you can't make the impossible... Possible.

To my Masters I am sorry. I never should have thought I could amount to any level of greatness. I'm sorry for wasting your time.