Mute By Choice

Talk

   The class was silent as the teacher was talking about stress and emotions in the Health class. Rose set silently in her seat, feeling as someone was paying close attention to her. The person wasn't staring nor trying to get her attention, but her mind seemed to scream at her that he was paying his full attention to her. She didn't want that tension they had because it made her feel uneasy. She wanted to fix the problem, but couldn't.

~"What is wrong with you?!"~

  After few notes that had to be written down and more talk from the teacher, the girl went to Computer Science class. She silently walked in the halls, turning left and right when needed. Once or twice she saw other students walk the other direction that is until one student that cought her interest went by. They had green headphones, brown hair that was cut short and really comfortable clothes. She wanted to say 'hi', make a joke and laugh with the person like a friend, but they weren't friends.

~"Hey, ah... Do you want to sit with me and my friends?" The teen asked nervously. This was a chance to make a friend. The persons face went from normal to confused.
"Why?" They asked. She didn't know at the time why she panicked, but she did. For some reason that question made her want to hide and be unnoticed.
"I-I mean, you don't have to... I'm not forcing you." Why did I say that? I look dump. She thought.
"No, thanks. I'm good." The person answered. She nodded and walked away, still shaking. I'm a freak. Why did I do that? I could have said something else. Freak. Freak.~

  The teen shook her head a little as if trying to shake off a thought that was stuck to her like a fly. She finally reached the computer lab and smiled a tiny bit. This was her relaxing zone, the teacher was nice and she got to do her favorite coding while listening to music. She didn't have to interact with other humans. However, anytime she needed help, she felt guilty for bothering the teacher.

~"You? What do you know about games if you don't play them?" They spat at her.
"Well... I watch a YouTuber play. I can't play the games because I have no money." The confidence was rushing out of her as she said those words.
"So? Do you know what CounterStrike is about? What about Life is strange? I bet you only know about PacMan." They laughed. They laughed at her, but she indeed knew those games. Just never played them.~