Double the Trouble

Those eyes

(Iris' pov)
   I stood still for a moment letting Grayson pass me up a good amount so that we wouldn't be walking into the cafeteria together. As I finally got to the door I took a deep breath. I could do this. Grayson knows that I'm still kinda with Jack so he wouldn't do anything toooooo bad to piss him off right? I gulped knowing I was probably wrong and walked through the door before I talked myself into turning around. I looked over to the table where we normally sat before approaching it and saw Grayson Jack Ethan and Sammy, all eyes on me. SERIOUSLY?! All four of them! Did Sammy always eat lunch with us and I never noticed because of my focus on Ethan and occasionally Gray too, or did he randomly decide to play besties with Jack again? This was gonna be so awkward. I cleared my throat and walked up to the table slowly, a million different scenarios rushing through my mind with every step. Oh god who was I gonna sit next to? There was plenty of open space and it was a round table so I'd be sitting in between two of these lovely (note the sarcasm) guys, but which two? I had the options
A) between Grayson and Jack
B) between Grayson and Ethan
C) between Ethan and Sammy or
D) between Sammy and Jack
I was always terrible at tests, whether multiple choice or not. I decided to go with C just before I got to the table, figuring (more so hoping) Ethan got the hint so he wouldn't be flirty, and I already knew Sammy was mad at me, so why would he bother? It would just be awkward but couldn't be worse than any of my other options.
     As I sat down Jack furrowed his eyebrows. "Why so far?" He chuckled. Ughhh why was he so cute. And why was I so terrible?! How would I be able to look into those innocent and caring seeming eyes with those gorgeous eyebrows resting just above and break up with him when the time came? Or whatever you would call ending the thing going on between us. I snapped out of it and answered, "oh I don't know I was coming from that direction anyway and this seemed closest so," I laughed nervously and could hear Ethan chuckling next to me. Jack smiled at me," Because it was closest? Get over here lazy." He laughed. I forced a smile and nervously got up and moved to the spot he was patting RIGHT BETWEEN HIM AND GRAY. The absolute number one spot I didn't wanna sit at. If this really was a multiple choice test, this would be the obvious stupid answer that you cross out right away! I could see Grayson smirking from the corner of my eye as I sat down. I turned to my right when I sat down to see Jack already staring at me. He put his arm around me and before I even saw it coming he kissed me giving me no time to react. I smiled nervously looking down at the top of the table and I could see Grayson's fist clench. If my life was a story this day would be in the top five of my sluttiest moments, I'd literally kissed Grayson Ethan anddddd Jack all in one day. In my defense they initiated all of them? Who was I kidding there was no good side to any of this. Hardly anyone was talking so I decided to break the awkwardness and start a conversation. "So, Ethan, how's practice been?" I asked. "You should ask Grayson it's been.." he started before Grayson cut him off," yeah, you should ask me princess." He winked, and I gave him a stern disapproving look but Jack heard and saw Gray clearly. He furrowed his eyebrows and not in a confused way, but in a hot pissed off way. I felt him move about to say something but before arguing started I put my hand over Jack's on the table and looked at him and he smiled at me instantly calming down. This time it wasn't only Gray, but Ethan and Sammy too giving us serious looks with their jaws clenched. Aside from all the awkwardness and my worry of Jack suspecting something between me and Grayson I couldn't help but feel terrible and not stop thinking about what Sammy told me earlier. This was exactly what he was talking about. In my attempt to make everything seem normal between me and Jack to save him the pain of finding out I was pretty much cheating on him and making it worse. I was making him think that everything was great, that I liked him as much as he liked me, and only him, instead of just breaking it off the second I knew I still had feelings for Grayson, which in this case would've been since the beginning, so really I should've never even started anything with him. He was a GREAT guy. Maybe not in every girls eyes because of his old and recent relationship and girl related history, but when you really got to know him, he was. And he didn't ask for or deserve any of this. I started this. No one forced me to accept his compliments and go home with him when he found me in the park. This was my fault. I had to end it now.
I took a big gulp. "Jack can I talk to you alone?" He looked confused," uh..yeah, sure." We got up walking hand in hand out of the cafeteria. I lead him into the first empty classroom we came across and locked the door. He walked in before me and when I turned around ready to say words I didn't even know yet but somehow put together and figure out, I ran into his lips. No, not like walked into him and oops kissed you typa thing, I'm not stupid. Like the second I turned around he rammed his lips into mine. He picked me up and by habit I wrapped my legs around his waist. Crap no. I didn't mean to do that. I managed to pull my lips away long enough to say," Jack.." before he started kissing me again. He sat me on a counter part in the classroom (guessing this was a chem classroom) and continued to make out with me. "Jack.." I said again. "Yes baby." He said before continuing to kiss me. I started to feel relieved when I felt him finally stop his lips from attacking mine up until I felt them attacking my neck. Goddddddd. I accidentally let a moan slip out. This break up would be so much easier if he wasn't so damn hot. I grabbed his face and pulled it away from my neck, which he took as a 'hey attack my face again' type of sign, moving his lips back to mine. I was determined to make this be the last of his kisses not letting him shut me up with his soft lips anymore. I kissed back regularly this time, unintentionally finding myself cherishing every second of it. I used so much of my strength to pull away and quickly move off of the counter before he started kissing me again. He started walking up to me as if I was playing games before I blurted,"JACK I DIDN'T BRING YOU HERE TO MAKE OUT WITH YOU AND HAVE HEATED FOREPLAY."
He stopped in his tracks, "Then what for?" I closed my eyes and swallowed the lump building in my throat, and not from his tongue being down it. "I brought you here to tell you I think we should stop." The look that appeared on his face absolutely killed me inside, and at the risk of sounding dramatic and over exaggerative I honestly felt like breaking down and crying. This is exactly what I didn't want. This was all the proof I needed to tell me that Sammy was right. This was all my doing. I felt awful. He gulped at the same time I did," oh." Was all he managed to say. I could see the brokenness on his face but then I could see him suddenly trying to look tough and careless, but I knew him better than that. His eyes slightly softened again," What do you mean by stop?" I held back my tears," Well, I know we were never officially a couple so it's not like I could say break up.." I started before he interrupted, "So is that what we're doing?" I couldn't get any words out and just nodded my head. "But why? Why so suddenly? Did I do something?" I couldn't just keep shaking my head at him. It's not his fault I was a whore and couldn't face the consequences from a mess I created now. I knew if I started to talk I would start crying, and even if there was a possibility that I wouldn't, that possibility vanished when I saw a tear quickly race down his cheek. "No Jack, don't do that." I started to cry trying not to full on sob," it's not you, it's me. You didn't do anything. It's just me. I've changed. It's just. I can't explain." I tried wiping my tears which proved to be useless as they kept on flooding my face. "Tell me Iris how would anyone ever have a heart cruel enough to look into those eyes and kill you." He said, single tears taking turns slowly running down his cheeks. "What?" I asked confused. He started again, trying to make his voice sound normal,"it's something I've told you once before. And I get it now. Those who have eyes that prove unkillable are the ones that have the hearts and capability to kill." I cried even more. "Jack don't say that." I tried to walk closer to him and grab his hand but he backed away. He wiped his tear. "No. Just stop Iris. You can't even tell me why. Why you're suddenly inspired to do this. It'd suck either way, but atleast if you just told me maybe it'd hurt a little less. Maybe it would make me think that you didn't just come into my life to waste my time, making me fall in love with you just to do this in the end. Just maybe. But it doesn't matter." I continued crying, "Jack wait." He walked out of the classroom. I tried following him and saw him turn around once, and all I saw was a red eyed Gilinsky, someone who I initially thought impossible to ever cry over girl. Someone who couldn't be hurt by a girl breaking off ties with him. It broke me. But I realized that he was probably feeling twice as worse as me so I stopped in the middle of the hallway watching him walk off, heading out of the school. He actually loved me. I knew this was gonna be hard, but I had no idea it'd be like this.....

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