Double the Trouble

Explaining Time

(Iris' pov)

I stood there stunned still in the hallway, blankly staring in the direction he left, regretting all I'd done. The mess I'd made. The amazing guy I hurt. I needed to talk to him. Just as I decided I was gonna ditch school and drive to his house hoping that's where he headed, the cafeteria door opened and out came Gray. I looked at him forgetting I was probably red eyed and he wore a pitiful sad face. He came up to me and hugged me," Was it that bad?" I felt better in his arms. But then I felt guilty. This is what led me to hurt Jack. I pulled away, his face turning confused. "I need to find him." I said. He shook his head,"Iris, you're gonna make it worse. You ended things with him. Let him move on. I thought you wanted to be with me?" He said seeming hurt. "Grayson it's just you don't get it. I do. More than anything. But Jack. He wasn't some chew toy and that's what I used him as. He was great to me. When you were making out with other girls and being a dick to me and my heart was broken, Jack came and helped me pick up the pieces. He helped me remember that I'd be okay. Most of all he helped me realize that all I wanted, even after all, was you. I wouldn't of ever been here, giving us another go, if it weren't for him. So to answer your question, yes Gray, I do want to be with you. But I can't just let Jack go like that without giving him the explanation he wants, and deserves." I took a deep breath. Grayson answered," And what's that?" I gulped, " Everything.."

I ran out of the school not caring that I'd be missing my last two periods and got in my car. I started driving out of the parking lot no idea where I'd be going. Where would Jack go? I know I planned to drive to his house but that's too obvious, he knows I'd find him there. THE CLEARING IN THE FOREST!! Hopefully. Now to pray I could find my way there.
    I started driving wiping the after shock tears still running down my cheeks and surprisingly found that forest. Now to hope I could be Sacajawea and navigate my way to the spot. I tried to retrace my steps by replaying the memory of my first time here in my head. Jack was holding my hand and practically dragging me, crazy excited to show me this place. He would give me kisses every two minutes and rub his thumb on my hand. It was a sunny day which is ironic because it was actually starting to get kind of cloudy, but not cold which was good since I stupidly decided to put on shorts this morning. I shook my head trying to focus on where Jack had taken me rather than what we'd been doing. That proved to be impossible. With each step that I took I remembered all of the great memories that should've never happened. I started crying again. Finally I found the place with the curtain of leaves that you would've never guessed had something behind them and peeled them back slowly walking through the mini cave into the clearing. Sure enough standing by the lake was a frustrated Jack throwing rocks into it. I tried to wipe my tears. Just as I was about to say his name the crunch of leaves under my shoes made him turn around and he saw me. He took about four steps in my direction before he stopped in his tracks and shook his head. I could faintly see a tear roll down his cheek. Not this again. He was about to turn around and walk away but I knew that if I let him go I'd never find him. He knew this forest all too well. I ran up to him and grabbed his arm," Jack wait!" He pulled his arm away and turned towards me," What Iris? What do you want?! How'd you even find me?" I cleared my throat and wiped my tears," Do you really need to ask that? And because I remembered  how you said you came here when you were upset so I thought it was a good guess." He stared at me wiping his tear quickly," Well I don't wanna talk to you. As long as you don't wanna say anything then you can keep your mute self away from me." My eyes were burning from all these tears."Can you just wait! I came here to explain. I'll tell you whatever you wanna know. But I'll only do that if I know you're not gonna walk away at any given second." I stared at his Adam's apple as he gulped and nodded his head once, seriously. I walked to the rock we had sat on before and he followed, and we sat in the exact places we had before. Probably not the best idea of mine. Once we sat down he blurted out his first question the one I knew was coming," Why?" I nodded my head and gulped. "Jack I'm in love with Gray." He chuckled in a hurt way and shook his head looking out onto the lake. "Of course," he started," of course it'd be a Dolan boy." I looked down," Don't do that. Before all of this, before me, you were friends with Gray and E." He shook his head again," But I was never close with them Iris. We just kicked it with the same people. And you can blame it on whatever or whoever you want but this is how it is. I'm not cool with them. But this is all besides the point. Why couldn't you just say this before? Why would you use me as a way to test your feelings for him? Why'd I have to be the one you did this to?" I bit my now quivering lip," I never meant to. I know you're thinking that I just thought hey I don't know if I really like Grayson so I'm gonna kiss another boy and see if I feel something and that that boy happened to be you, over and over again. I fell for you Jack. I liked you a lot. But that never changed how I felt about him." All he managed to do was shake his head. I wiped my tears and stood up walking by the lake and grasping my hair tightly in my hands. "What on earth could be making youuuu frustrated. You're not the one who just got their heart broken. You're not the one that just got used. That was all me." He harshly said. I was done with this. "YOU JACK. FUCKING YOUU! You are the reason I'm stressed and frustrated you are why this is so damn difficult. I wasn't supposed to fall for you! None of this was supposed to happen!!" He walked up to me furrowing his eyebrows," OH IM SORRY IRIS FOR BEING SUCH AN INCONVENIENCE. IM SORRY THAT YOU ACTUALLY STARTED TO FEEL SOMETHING WHILE YOU WERE USING ME AS SOME DOLAN RELIEF TOOL!" I started yelling back," YOU'RE ONE TO TALK BUDDY! HOW MANY GIRLS WERE YOU WITH AGAIN. OH THATS RIGHT YOU LOST COUNT." He got closer," ATLEAST I WASNT WITH ANY OF THOSE GIRLS WHILE I WAS TALKING TO YOU!" I got up in his face," And whose to say that. How am I supposed to know you weren't." I spit. He lowered his voice but still shouted," Because I fucking love you!!" He grabbed my face and kissed me. I furrowed my eyebrows while kissing back. I couldn't let him drag this out like this. I backed up out of the kiss after being probably only five seconds into it and what. are. the. odds. I fell into the lake. Just as I was about to swim up and gasp I swallowed water and started choking. I could faintly hear Jack calling my name. I could see his figure from under the clear lake water moving with the ripples of it and I couldn't manage to get myself to surface as I struggled for air. Before I knew it I felt my eyes closing and the last thing I saw was Jack jumping in the lake to come get me.....

So I know this isn't super long but it's longer than what I've been posting recently so I hope you guys enjoy!😂 Make sure to comment (: