Double the Trouble

Im sorry

  (Iris' pov)

Everything came to me in blurred parts. In one part, I felt my clothes soaked as I lay on the rock and Jack was above me. Kissing me? No. giving me CPR? Thats the end of that memory. Next part I'm out close to my car I think and I hear sirens. End of that part. Next moment I think I'm in the hospital and I feel someone holding my hand. Then I hear," I am so sorry this happened. This is all my fault. I don't know what I would've done if I would've lost you. I promise that no matter what I'll always be here for you, even if it's not the way I wanna be." Jacks voice. I felt myself fall back into a slumber. Next part I hear a voice again and a hand on top of mine, rubbing it with their thumb and I hear,"I shouldn't of let you go. I knew it was a bad idea. Just know, that you'll never feel that type of pressure again. If you want to be with him, I understand. I just want you to be happy." Grayson. Why was he saying this? In what felt like ten minutes I managed to finally open my eyes all the way to be conscious of my surroundings. Sure enough, I was right, I was in a hospital bed. Next to me asleep in a chair was Gray, across the room on the couch was Sammy and Jack asleep and on the other chair next to my IV rollie thing was Ethan, also asleep. How was it night? I swear it'd only been maybe an hour. Grayson woke up the second I fluttered my eyes open and smiled,"Iris. You're up." I smiled," Yeah. How long have I been out?" He looked down then rubbed my hand with his thumb as I felt while I was asleep. "A week." I sat up,"A WEEK?!" He rubbed my back to calm me down. "Don't freak out. You've been in and out but this is the first time you've been solidly awake and talking so it's only a matter of time before you're ready to go home." I continued to pant, panicking. "How have I been asleep for a week?!" I almost shouted. "They said you were in a coma-like state. They think you might've hit your head on a rock or something at the bottom of the lake. Jack jumped in a got you and gave you CPR." I stopped for a second closing my eyes reliving the short memory I had, "Jack." I softly said to myself before opening my eyes to Grayson looking down, "Yeah." He scratched his head," uhm, I'm gonna go get you some more water." Before I could say anything realizing I probably made him feel like shit, he was out of the room and I saw Sammy and Ethan waking up, Jack still knocked out cold on the couch. Ethan rushed over to my side and gave me a hug, "Iris !!" I giggled, "Easy on the squeeze buddy, I'm still delicate." He let go immediately and backed up,"Holy crap what was I thinking I'm sorry!" I laughed at his sweetness and caution," Ethan I'm kidding you don't have to walk on eggshells around me." I saw movement from the corner of my eye, it was Sammy walking towards my bed. "Hey cutie." He smirked. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "Flirty even when I'm in a hospital bed, smooth Sammy." I squinted my eyes nodding. He laughed," Shut up and get over here," he sat next to me on my bed kissing my forehead then wrapping me in his arms. I let it happen snuggling my head with the warm sleeve of his sweater, it was just a hug right? Before I knew it the door flew open and in came Grayson," I have your water." He glared at Sammy who glared back before moving back to the couch. Grayson sat in his chair scooting it as close as it could possibly be to my bed and handed me my water. "Thank you Gray," I smiled softly taking his hand and kissing it then rubbing my thumb on it the way he usually did to me. He smirked but it turned into a smile followed by him looking down but I caught him blushing. As if the timing couldn't be more perfect we all turned as we heard Jack shuffle waking up and the moment was ruined. Ethan blurted, "And the elephant in the room roars." Sammy chuckled but Grayson glared at Ethan. Jack's eyes fluttered open and immediately layed on mine. His cute sleepy face turned into a smile and he got up coming towards me, but was interrupted when Grayson stood up preventing him from getting any closer. Jack furrowed his eyebrows and so did Gray. "Okay no we're not doing this. Not here, you guys are acting ridiculous. I have a better idea. I have a lot to say to all of you so I want everyone out of here and to talk to you one by one. Please." I said sternly staring at all of them. They all nodded. "Okay then. Ethan first." I looked over to him seeing him smirk. Grayson Sammy and Jack all walked out and closed the door behind them. Ethan gave me a kiss on the cheek and sat down in Gray's chair right next to me. "So, why me first." He winked. I laughed,"Honestly, I figured you're the easiest to deal with right now. After all we've been through together I feel like we can just be honest with eachother and I like where we're at now. I don't really have anything to say to you I just wanted a little time to take a breather before I have to deal with them." He laughed," Ouch." I shook my head quickly, grabbing his hand, "No no no you know I didn't mean it like that E. I mean you're so understanding and you know I'll always love you. Just you've made this so easy because you're so considerate. And I thank you for that." He nodded," I know what you mean I just like messing with you Iris. And I'll always love you too." He kissed me on my other cheek," Now are you ready to see the rest of your boy toys and play the bachelor?" I hit him laughing," Shut upppp. Can you call Sammy in please?" He nodded walking out. Sammy walked in taking a heavy breath before sitting down, also in Grayson's spot. "So.." he started. I sighed," Sooo." I took a deep breath then blurted," I'm sorry Sammy. I'm so so so damn sorry. I was such a bitch the last time we talked and I sounded ignorant and conceited and just like a total dick assuming things. I jumped to the assumption that you wanted me to explain how I felt about the kiss when you were really just being caring as usual and making sure I was alright. I hate the way we left things and you were right. I'm a slut!! I'm a terrible person. I lead people on without even realizing it. You were right and I was wrong. I'm just really sorry and I hope we can still be friends." He laughed overwhelmed, "Iris slow down," he grabbed my hand," of course we can still be friends. And the blame isn't all on you. I was wondering about the kiss and I was taken aback when you read my mind then shut me down. I have feelings for you but you're clearly tangled up in enough and I don't wanna add to your drama so of course. We can still. Be. Friends. And you're not a slut." He smiled. I smiled back," Thanks Sammy," I kissed him on his cheek,"Can you call Jack in next?" He nodded walking out. Now I had to mentally prepare myself. I closed my eyes and took the deepest breath possible. I covered my face with my hands. You got this Iris come on get yourself together. In the middle of the pep talk I was giving myself Jack walked in clearing his throat. He walked up to me quickly grabbing my face and kissing my cheek. He hugged me tight, I almost wanted to make a sound so he knew it was almost to the hurting me point since I was sore but I just let it happen instead. He sat down where apparently everyone was sitting for this, in Grayson's spot, and started,"Iris I cannot even begin to tell you how fucking sorry I am. This is literally all my fault. The reason you fell into the lake, the reason you've been out for a week, the reason you're just in this hospital.." I cut him off by grabbing his face and kissing his cheek," You're also the reason I'm okay. You're the reason I'm alive, Grayson told me you gave me CPR. Jack you can't blame yourself for this because as far as I'm concerned my being okay is the only thing you're 'the reason' for and responsible for. The rest was on me." He shook his head smiling. I continued," Now to finish the talk we should've had at the lake. I'm gonna tell you the same thing I told Sammy. I lead people on apparently, is what I figured out about myself. I'm an asshole and literally everything that's happened every problem that's presented itself in my life is all completely and utterly my fault. I did this. I'm the reason all of this happened." I started to tear up and I saw him about to cut me off so before he could even try to get a word in I continued while starting to actually cry,"No one would've been hurt in any way at all right now if it weren't for me. This was literally all my fault I screwed things up with all of you. And one could argue that you were just collateral damage in the midst of all the shit that was taking place with me and Gray but I clearly and stupidly failed to remember that you're more than that Jack. You're a fucking person and a great one too. One that I was convinced I couldn't hurt one that I was convinced could never love a girl because everyone talked about how much of a player he was. I let things get way too far with you and I shouldn't of done that. I let things happen that I have complete control over. I acted like none of this was on me when it all really was. You're so fucking amazing Jack. You're sweet and caring and smart and a gentleman, not to mention you're freaking hot, and I hurt you. And for that I'll never forgive myself. I'm so so, truly, with all of my heart, sorry. I'm sorry for coming into your life and wasting your time as you put it and I'm not saying this in a shady way I'm saying this because you're right. I'm sorry for screwing up everything and I'm sorry that I hurt you but I promise I won't even be selfish enough to ask you if we can be friends because I don't wanna lose you Jack. I've been biting my tongue from saying this but screw it, I love you Jack. And I don't want you out of my life but after all I've put you through, well I wouldn't even want me in my life so I completely understand if that's what you choose. I will leave you alone and pretend I never met you. I won't call you you won't have to see me or hear my voice or have to withstand my presence. I'll disappear. Just say the words and I swear. Because Jack you wouldn't believe how serious I am when I say I'm sorry." I breathed out finally and we were both crying. He started, "Iris I am hurt. I wish we could be together and there were no problems, but that's not the case. You're in love with Grayson, and I don't like it, but I'll accept it. But of all the things , all the things in the world, I literally can't think of anything worse than you leaving my life. I forgive you. And again, even if it's not the way I want it to be, I wanna be in your life still. So yes, we can be friends." I smiled. "What?" He asked. I answered," You said something around those lines while I was sleeping didn't you?" He blushed. I smiled. He started again,"Iris, before this is all over, can I kiss you one last time." I probably shouldnt of, because I'm supposed to cut ties to Jack and just be with Grayson, but we needed some closure. I smiled after thinking it through and deciding," What do you think?" He smirked," Well I'm hoping it's a yes." He leaned over grabbing my face and planted his lips on mine. I grabbed his face stroking his jawline and what was supposed to be a goodbye peck turned into some passionate kiss. He pulled away slowly staring at me in silence. We both smiled at eachother. "Goodbye Jack. Can you call Gray in please?" He nodded kissing my forehead then walking out. A huge weight lifted off my shoulders knowing that me and Jack were finally gonna be okay and I just had one more conversation to go. Grayson walked in and sat down in his spot. "Hey you," he smiled. I smiled back," Hey you." I started,"Me and Jack kissed Gray. I just wanted you to know and don't be mad because you need to hear everything else first." His eyebrows were already furrowed and his jaw clenched, "I'm not mad. If you wanna be with him Iris.." I cut him off grabbing his face," Gray stop no. I heard this already when I was sleeping. I wouldn't dream of being with anyone but you. Things got so complicated and people got hurt just because I tried so hard to not let myself love you, and I'm done with that. All the kisses and things that have taken place were just closure that was needed and you'd understand if you were them. But don't start looking down or sighing because the point of this is that you're not. I love you Gray. You. Everyone else is done. I want to be with you and now there's nothing holding us apart." I ended my rant with a huge sigh. He was smiling and started," God am I glad to hear that. And I love you." He leaned in and kissed me. This. This is what I missed. The knot in my stomach that was building the second I layed eyes on him walking in the room finally being undone when I felt the taste of his lips on mine. Feeling the sparks and the heat rush to my cheeks. Running my fingers through his soft hair. "God you have no idea how crazy I am about you." I said when we finally pulled apart. He smirked then winked," I think I have a pretty good idea princess." The nurse walked in, "Iris, I just came to let you know that you can gather your belongings, you're being discharged. You'll just need to sign out when you're ready to go." Now to see where life was gonna take this.

Hey guys!! Here's a long part to make up for the gap of time I haven't updated in. I hope you guys like it, make sure to comment your thoughts and what you want to happen next!!