Double the Trouble

Road to recovery.....atleast I think so

(Graysons pov)
I had so much trouble processing what had just happened. After Iris left this morning me and Ethan didn't speak at all we were just sitting in silence. And the first sound I get to hear is this? That Ethan cheated on the girl I love while making her feel guilty for cheating on him? What a douchebag. And i said exactly what was on my mind," What the fuck Ethan? How could you try to make us feel guilty, try to make her feel like a whore when you were the biggest one of them all on your time away. I'll have you know, it never got farther than kissing, not sure I can say the same for you. And she's been ignoring me for a while now because she loves you and she knew what she was doing was wrong, even though it certainly felt right. But that's not the point. Point is. Your a douche bag brother, and I may of made mistakes but I don't regret any of them. If your still the guy I used to know, you'll regret yours." I walked away from him pissed off and went upstairs to go check on Iris. I came to her door and gently put my hand on it and leaned in to listen. I heard sniffles. I tried to open it but it was locked. She wasn't gonna let me in. Not now atleast. I'd just have to try to again tonight. I walked to my room, or atleast the room I was staying in, and threw myself on the bed.

(Ethan's pov)
I stood in place exactly where Grayson left me. Taking in each and every one of his words still, knowing that each and every one of them was right. Nothing could justify what Iris did. She cheated on me with my brother! But that didn't make what I did any better either. It's not like I slept with the girl, but we were close. I'm sure Iris and Grayson didn't go that far. I always pictured Iris being my first. It's pretty much the end of sophomore year. I'm not in a rush to lose my virginity, but I was hoping that when I did it'd be with her. I thought there mightve even been a chance of it happening over these next weeks. All three of us were on vacation from school afterall because we were "with our parents" and therefore excused. We'd only have to go to school for the last week then it'd be summer vacation. How'd I manage to be stupid enough to do anything with another girl. How did me and Iris get so screwed up? I needed to talk to her. I walked to her room upstairs and tried opening the door. Locked. I knocked. "Iris?" I softly said. I heard a sniffle then a "Leave me alone." I shook my head. "Iris please, just open the door. We need to talk." I heard footsteps and the door almost clicked but she didn't open it. I could hear her breathing on the other side of the door and even though that may seem creepy, it soothed me. Even after all this. After everything I've done and everything she did, she still gave me chills and made me feel calm. I shook my head back to reality," Iris, if your not gonna open the door then atleast move aside because I'm about to break it down." I heard her step back. Just as I was about to ram into it with my shoulder I heard the click of her unlocking it. I turned the knob and smiled when it turned all the way. I opened the door to see a red eyed girl, still managing to look perfect with her long curly brown hair. She was in a black tank top and little pajama shorts but looked like a queen anyway. I was surprised at how fast she changed. I stopped focusing on her beauty and walked up to where she was sitting on her bed now. I furrowed my eyebrows not knowing how to act or how to feel about her. Part of me wanted to storm away still angry with the fact that her lips had touched not only some other guys, but my brothers. The other part of me still loved her and knew I could overcome this. I knew that if I walked away it'd probably be one of the biggest mistakes id have of ever made so I stayed put. "Iris we can't just ignore eachother. That might be your master plan, but it's not gonna happen. We have to talk." Her green eyes slightly teared up again and her voice cracked as she spoke," I don't wanna talk. I don't want you here in front of me. I don't want any of this. I can't do this Ethan." I grabbed her arms," neither of us can. Do you think it's easy for me to sit here knowing all of this so suddenly and having to discuss it knowing that I'm gonna hear things I don't wanna hear and it probably won't end the way I want it to? Cuz it's not. But we're gonna do this one way or another. We both made mistakes, taking blame for them comes with them whether we like it or not." She looked me in the eyes and I stared back watching as a tear fell from her eyes and then a next and another and she started crying out," What's there to talk about Ethan?! I was unloyal I did things and let things happen that should've never happened! And just when I thought that was bad enough, you did God knows what. We turned something so pure and perfect into this. And now everytime I look at you, I feel guilty! Everytime you look me in the eye, I see my reflection. I see a whore that broke your heart. And then I see you. A boy I thought was perfect that broke mine right back. We can't fix this! There is no going back to the way things were. There is no recovery!. This is it. Now please get out of my room." I stood up not knowing what to say. It's like I knew exactly what I wanted to say but couldn't get it out into words. I slowly walked out stopping before I closed her door," about what you said earlier, down stairs. I don't hate you. I can't imagine a day that that'd even be possible. Just thought you should know." I put my head down and closed her door. I walked downstairs and threw myself on the couch and started watching a movie. Just as I was getting into it my phone beeped and it was a text from.....

(Iris' pov)
Katrina? I haven't talked to her since my first day of school when she warned me about the dolans. I opened her message and saw she sent it to alottttt of people. It was an invitation to a party, tonight. I wasn't exactly in the party mood. I only had like two girl friends from the cheer team that I never really hung out with and only talked to, Ashley and Kim, Katrina too but we weren't as close. As if they heard my thoughts, I got a message from Ashley and one from Kim asking if I was going to the party tonight. I of course told them no. I was in no mood to be around people, not after all of this. I layed down on my bed and got through 3 episodes of the vampire diaries on Netflix before I heard the doorbell ring. I furrowed my eyebrows and got up and headed downstairs, dreading the idea of running into Grayson or Ethan. Again, me being the luckiest person in the world saw Ethan on the couch but he just looked at me to see who was at the door. I opened it and it was Ashley Katrina and Kim. Yay. "Iris!!" They let themselves in and hugged me tight. I felt awkward knowing that they might say something about Ethan to me not knowing that he was sitting right there staring at us. Ashley started,"We haven't seen you in forever! I heard what happened with that douchebag. Screw him he's an idiot." I scratched my head not knowing how to tell them to shut up and then Katrina started," yeah I can't believe he had the nerve to do that. Did he even think about how embarrassing it'd be for you when everyone found out. That's so pathetic of him." I tried to interrupt before Kim started," Guys we shoul.." Kim cut me off," yeah screw him your coming with us to the party tonight whether you like it or not and we're gonna find you a fine ass guy that'll actually be worth your time" she winked at me. "GUYS!" I yelled and moved my eyes to the side so they'd get the hint and they looked and saw Ethan mugging them. They gritted their teeth at me slowly making their way to my room upstairs. As I followed I heard Ethan mumble,"And they wonder why Iris was the only girl I was ever interested in," I chuckled and he heard and looked at me and smiled but I looked away. Things weren't just gonna be able to be fixed.
We got to my room and I threw myself on my bed under my covers. Ashley started," Mm mm get up now. Your not gonna do this whole laying down in depression thing. We're going to go to that party, get fucked up, and make you forget everything that's happened since you met Ethan." I looked at the ceiling wondering if they knew how wrong they were. This wasn't just about Ethan. It was about Grayson too. But they couldn't know that, cuz if they did then I'd be a whore in everyone's eyes. I wasn't gonna open up to anyone. No one knew the real reason that I was messed up. No one knew why I was so sad, and they weren't gonna know. Kim got up and threw a towel at me. "Get your hot ass in the shower, we'll be back here by the time you get out and we'll get ready together. Tonight's gonna be good." She smirked walking out with Katrina following saying,"duh" and Ashley behind them both who just nodded and winked and said "Mhmmm" I shook my head rolling my eyes but wasn't in the mood to argue anymore so I jumped in the shower, and in there started thinking about how tonight was gonna go. Maybe the party would help get my mind off things and the girls were right? Maybe this is how I was gonna recover and get over everything. Or it might be a complete disaster. But the way I was feeling, I was willing to risk anything and everything. What do I have to lose? I've already lost everything I care about so this was just a gamble in the dark. This is either gonna be the best thing for me or the worst and I'm willing to go find out which it'll be.