Old Love Dies Hard (spinoff of life happens)

Chapter XXVII - A Little Confession

I wake up with some shifting in the room, as my eyes adjust to the light, I realize that I'm not in my room.
The events of last night wash over my mind like a horrible wave and my heart drops to my stomach, leaving an empty space in its place.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you up" Mason looks at me, taking out his clothes, his face clearly lacking something.
Maybe just the most beautiful part, his positivity.

"No you didn't, I'll just go into my room and let you pack" I get up

"Uh- w-what time is the flight Amna?" He stutters

"7pm" I answer, not knowing what else to say.
Should I tell him that I love him?
NO!
I twist the doorknob to leave but I stop to ask him something else

"Are you okay Mason?" I clear my throat

"No" he shrugs, not even looking at me and I quietly nod

"I wouldn't expect you to be" I whisper, my frown deepening.

I can really see the hurt in his eyes, all the light just vanishing and that really hurts my heart. I don't want the one positive thing in my life to go the wrong way, he's too precious for that.

I brush my teeth and just sit back in my bed. I really don't wanna go downstairs and face Kim and Rose. I just want to wallow in solidarity.

Everything feels so dull, just like when I went through my first heart break, and I really don't want to go through a second one.

I don't want the sun to stop burning.

I put my headphones on and just drift off to the place that never disappoints me.

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I'm woken up quite gently and my eyes flutter open to see Rose and Kim standing above me.

I have no idea when I fell asleep listening to songs. I check the time and see that it has been quite long.

"Hey" Kim smiles and I smile back.

What in the world?

"Amna you might wanna go and you know- like- Mason is leaving so you might wanna go talk to him" Rose awkwardly says

"Yeah I know. I just- I don't know what to say" I confess

"Whatever you want to say just say it, look we don't mean to be pessimists here but who knows what situation you guys will be in after he goes away and if, God forbid, something happens to his mother...." Kim says

As much as I wouldn't like to, I have to agree to what she's saying. I am very certainly not going to tell him what I feel about him because I don't want to make it difficult for him to go away.

I'm not being over confident here but I would be extremely dumb if I said that I didn't know whether he liked me or not.

I think he does like me but the difference here is that I'm not sure if he loves me.

I know I do.

But maybe for him it's just a crush. I don't want to let my thoughts get to me because they always ruin everything for me.
Act on your instincts, Amna.

Why does this always have to happen to us?
I know he has to leave and he should go for his mom but I just don't want him to. I really just wanna shout at the world, at everyone and also at both of us.

Why can't we just let it go and be happy?
Apparently because life happens to us at the best moments.

"I'll go talk to him" I say and get up.