Can I have this CHANCE?

Chapter 13: why? part 2

The night was a whole confusion...
Ramon has calmed down and we are inside the car. Ramon started the engine and put it on DRIVE. Ramon held my hand all night till we made it at my house. We are infront of our house then Ramon was still holding my hand I tried to let go but his grip keeps on tightning. He finally looked at me and smiled then suddenly he was my hand go slowly. Deep inside of me I was so confused. I was going to open the door when he said. "WAIT FOR ME." I was standing infront of the passenger seat my hand kind of got frozen for me not knowing the reason. Ramon got out of the car rushing towards me and held then kissed me. My eyes wided because of shock then I felt on my lips a cold drop. He was crying again. Because I was so confuse I ask him. "WHY DO YOU KEEP ON SAYING WAIT FOR YOU? ARE... YOU.. LEAVING ME... AGAIN?" Ramon didn't response. He just held me so tight. I entered in my house while Ramon was still standing infront of my house. I waved saying good night. As i was closing my door I heard Ramon's blue BMW engine started then I look on the window he left. I went to my room to get changed then my phone beeped. It was Ramon he messeged me saying. "Raphaela I don't know where to start I can't say it to you face to face but I'll be leaving soon because my father wants me to go back. I don't want to ruin this night because this is special for both of us. I can't help but cry because i don't want to leave you. I am so sorry." As I was reading my tears won't stop falling. And saying "WHY?". Why does he have to leave me again? Can I still endure it this time?. I was standing on my room holding my phone. When the pain got through me I fell on the floor not having strength to stand up. I didn't mind at all that I whispered "Ramon... No..." and thinking this was supposed to be special. Because this day is the day that our love has lasted but why does he have to leave me again? No I can't I have suffered to much for waiting for him. I don't want him to leave. Many thoughts came to my mind but I can't help but cry all night. And think of things I will do if he leaves me, alone again. What will I do I can't live without him by my side. He is my everything I can't I love him. He is my world. Please Ramon don't leave. Don't leave me. I don't know what to do without you.