Can I have this CHANCE?

Chapter 15: Without you

It has been 4 weeks since Ramon left. Also my anger is still inside me but there is a part of me that I miss him so much. There is a time that I would always check my phone incase Ramon have texted me. Some of this anger turns into worry. These worries it feel like me thinking if his alright?, what is he doing?, have he eaten already?, and those he still love me?. As I going to the canteen my friend came up to me and told me if everything is alright. I just nodded in response. But the truth even I don't know what I trully feel. As I paid the meal I bought. My phone vibrated. I immidiately got it and unlock my phone. I was shock from what I saw. Ramon messaged me. He said he was sorry only those word were on the text. I replied its okay. Are okay? How have you been? Have you eaten? Can we talk?. I took a little while for him to reply. He said I'm busy can't talk right now. I have this feeling that Ramon won't do that to me. He would do anything for both of us just to communicate. Then I was really worried I called Ramons older sister.  Good thing she answeres very quickly. "HELLO?. CAMILLE IS RAMON THERE?" I said. "OH HE DIDN'T TELL YOU WE ARE AT MIMI'S BIRTHDAY PARTY. I CAN'T SEE RAMON. I'LL CALL YOU WHEN I SEE HIM. PROMISE." she replied. As she ended the call. MIMI that name... that was Ramons ex girlfriends name. In my mind what is going on? The day ended I got home still waiting for Camille to call back. As soon as I reached for my door my phone ringed and I answered it. "HELLO CAMILLE?" I said. "RAPHAELA? I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING. AS I WAS LOOKING FOR RAMON. HIS FRIEND CAME UP TO ME AND SAID RAMON AND MIMI GOT UPSTAIRS IN MIMIs ROOM. AND WHEN I GOT THERE RAMON..." she didn't continue. Cause there was a full silent on the phone. I wasn't talking nor responsing to everything she said. But all I know is that tears were running down my cheeck. As I got back to reality. "RAPHAELA? ARE YOU STILL THERE?" she said. "YES.... PLEASE CONTINUE." I said trying to hide the pain. "ARE YOU SURE?" she said. "YES". I response. "HE WAS... KISSING MIMI. I WASN'T REALLY SURE BECAUSE IT WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO SEE BECAUSE RAMON WAS KIND OF BLOCKING THE WHOLE SCENE." she told me. Without any thought of it I ended the call. I dropped my phone and lost my balance. I don't know what to do. I was infornt of my door crying. I was really in pain. I tried to stand myself up and got the keys on the floor and my phone. As I opened the door. My phone suddenly rang it was Ramon's name who popped up. I didn't answer the phone. I shut it down and put it inside my bag. I run upstairs and throw my bag on the floor and I laid on my bed and cover my face with a pillow. I didn't even notice that I fell asleep.