Can I have this CHANCE?

Chapter 14: You were gone

Its been a week since Ramon and I last saw each other. I was always at home waiting because Ramon might come by. But the past few days have failed. The moment Ramon told me he would have to leave again has not yet sinked in my mind yet its like my mind won't accept it. Even my heart. I kept on messaging Ramon he does reply. But there is this feeling that I am not satisfied. I tried to relax and think positive. The thought that always come to my mind like before Ramon has to live for his Family. If you REALLY LOVE HIM you can still wait for him. I noted that deep inside my mind. But somethings still go through my mind so I tried to distract myself like cleaning the house anything I need to do just to make does thought flew away. What didn't come to my mind is that I was busy distracting myself I forgot my phone. When I was fully done and fully relax and finally remembered my phone I run upstairs to get my phone inside my room. There were 20 missed calls it was Ramon. I immidiately called him back. Because it was almost night time that I didn't even realize. As I was calling Ramon. A girl answered the phone. "Rapahela?" said the girl. The voice was so familiar. Then suddenly I flashback came into my mind. It was Ramons second older sister. "YES! You're with Ramon?" I said. "Yes. He's already home. It looks like his so tired that he forgot his phone" she said. I was speechless. He left without saying GOOD BYE or seeing me? "Hello? Raphaela arw you still there?" she said. I got back to reality and said to her. "I hope his safe." I ended the call. And tears came running to my cheeck. I was so hurt.. mad.. arritated.. pissed.. all this emotions are mixed up. For him leaving me. Hurting me like this.
I tried to calm myself but this pain in my heart is like tearing me apart. My soul its like being burned and its like I lost so much in my evething. My world was shattered. Time pass and I all night and days I can't stop crying. Because I didn't expect this to happen. I didn't even have a chance to tell him the things I want to tell him before he leaves. I tried to close my eyes to take a rest but Ramon and pain was only in my mind. That causes more pain. My heart, my mind, my body, and my soul was all looking for him. This feeling is like is the only one who can cure this pain. And answer the question  that have never been answered not even once.