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01 | that's my girl

I slid down the wall, burying my face into my knees as tears pooled from my eyes, landing on my open-cut arms. "Lucy..." I choked out, over and over again, hoping she'd come back to me.

"Lucy... Lucy..." I squeezed my arms, gritted my teeth, and screamed out to nothing.

"Come back to me, Lucy!!" Sobs escaped my lips as I fell over onto my side, curling up into a ball, tugging at my hair while screaming in a fit of greif and heartbreak.

My Lucy..

Had left me.

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She can't start over with someone else. Because he will buy her food, expecting her to eat it, not knowing that she's way too picky.

He won't appreciate the way she mumbles, he will just ask her to speak up.

He won't think the baseline between her neck and face is beautiful.

He'll see the many knots in her hair and think, 'My god, thats a mess..' But I think, 'My god, she's perfect..'

He'll notice the way that she wears the same few T-Shirts over and over and probably pick on her for it, but I love it. I love the smell. I love her.

I don't want his lips where mine used to go.

I don't want his hands where mine are supposed to be.

I don't want him to hear her god awful singing, that I completely adore or get to experience her good playlist and hear her sing out every song.

I don't want him seeing her at 8 am, when she's all natural and bright eyed and bushy-tailed.

He won't know where her scars came from or why she flinches every time someone moves towards her.

I don't want him to notice the way she's always smiling, even when she needs to break down. She's so strong.

I don't want him wiping the food off the corners of her mouth every time they go out to eat.

I know I mess up, and don't treat her how I'm supposed to, but I can't see her move on and let someone else treat her better. I can't let anyone know her the way I do.

That's my girl.

And that's my person.

-10/21/16
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