Everything has Changed~ Austin Mahone

Chapter 23.

"I don't wanna talk about it right now. I just need to be by myself for a bit. I'll tell you later." I said walking in and stopping in the living room to say hi to everyone. I waved and everyone looked like they just saw a ghost.

"What happened Alex?" Haley asked me standing up to hug me. I put my hand in front to say don't touch me. She gave me a concerned look and backed away.

"Are you okay?" Alex asked.

"What the fuck does it look like. Of course she's not okay you idiot." Melissa said behind me. Alex put his hands up in defence and I laughed a little bit but it disappeared. Alex's smile turned into a straight line and everyone looked away awkwardly.

"I need time to think. I'll tell you guys later. I don't know how you guys will take it but just to let you know. Austin's an asshole." I said walking away and then I heard whispering. I don't know how this will work out, I know I will forgive him but I don't know when.

I walked into the bathroom upstairs and closed the door then locked it. I looked at myself in the mirror and gagged. I look like complete shit. All because Austin is a stupid fucking asshole and he doesn't know how to stay committed to one girl. I honestly think that he did it on purpose because me and Justin were getting along and being friendly to each other. How would he feel if he walked in on me and Justin making out?

I feel to the ground with my back against the door. I put my hands to the side of my face and pulled my hair. I took a deep breath and stood up from my spot. I locked the door and looked at the mirror again. I can't live with myself. No wonder why he wants to kiss other girls, I'm so fucking ratchet and ugly. He deserves someone better and sexier and everything in between. I can't do this anymore. He can't hurt me again. I am so broken. What if they are having sex right now? What if he is having an amazing time with her? What if he forgot about me already?

I hit myself in the face and could feel the pain already. I know that this is wrong but so right. I deserve it, I am a horrible person and I shouldn't be alive, I shouldn't be with him, I should have the body I have right now, I should be fat still and ugly and annoying. I don't deserve to be here.

I looked around, I opened the drawers, the cabinets, the coverts. Everything I could open I did. Looking for one special thing, something that I did in the past, something that made me feel so good but yet so horrible. I need the feeling, I'm craving it.

"There you are." I whispered to myself. I picked it up in my hands and looked at myself in the mirror.

"You fat whore." I told myself and made one cut on my wrist with the razor that I found. "why are you alive?" I asked myself. I made another cut and moaned lightly. I love this feeling more then I should. "You're ugly." I added making a deeper cut. I screamed out in pain. This is getting out of hand. "Why did he lie to a fake bitch like you?" I yelled making an even deeper cut and I screamed louder and started crying. Everything got blurry and I heard banging at the door.

"ALEXA! OPEN UP!" Mel yelled through the closed door. I walked over to the bath tub and sat against it. I heard the banging getting louder and I made one more deep deep cut then threw the razor at the door. I screamed again.

"FUCK YOU AUSTIN MAHONE." I yelled and felt my clothes get wet. I looked down and saw my dress soaked in blood. If I sit here I will die of blood loss.

It was really blurry now and I was getting dizzy. "if this is good bye then peace out mother fuckers." I mumbled and passed out.

********Melissa's POV********

I was sitting on the couch on my phone while everyone was talking and I heard a scream coming from up stairs. I told everyone to shut up to see if I could hear it again but nothing. There was a knock at the door and everyone looked at me.

"Okay I'll get it you fuckers." I said looking around the room and standing up. I walked up to the door and opened it.

"What the fuck do you want, Austin?" I asked.

"Is Alexa here."He asked looking at me.

"Were you crying?" I asked moving closer. "what happened with you and Alex?" I asked Austin. Right when he opened his mouth to say something we heard Alexa scream again. I looked at Austin and then turned around ran upstairs. He followed. We started banging on the door.

"ALEXA! OPEN UP!" I yelled through the door. I looked at Austin.

"Look what you've done? Way to go moron." I said banging on the door even harder. She steamed again and I heard something light hit the door.

"FUCK YOU AUSTIN MAHONE." She yelled not knowing he was here. I looked at him and shook my head. "really?" I asked with tears coming down my face. "If we lose her I swear Austin. I will rip your balls off with a cats paw." I said looking at him in the eyes with my voice breaking in the process. I saw tears forming in Austin's eyes.

******Austin's POV******

"Fuck you Austin Mahone." Alexa yelled. That hurt. That hurt a lot. I love her, I really do. I messed up, I know I did. There's no taking it back now, I feel horrible about it.

"We need to get this door opened." I said trying to twist the knob but it wouldn't budge. I need her. I can't lose her.

"Alexa, baby. I know you hate me right now but I need you to open the door. Don't do this to me. I messed up, I know I did but I need you to know I was being stupid." I said with my voice cracking. "I love you." I added.

After five minutes of waiting, we got no answer.

"Say something if your okay." Mel said. No answer.

"GUYS!" Mel yelled. "Call 911." she added.

I took a deep breath and blocked everything out, I jumped then ran right into the door. Didn't work. I did it again. Nope. Again. Nothing. Now I was getting sloppy and crying hysterically.

"Austin." Mel said. I kept running into it. "Austin." She said louder. I still went. "AUSTIN." she yelled. She grabbed my arms and took me into a hug. We moved down the wall until we were sitting on the ground beside the door. Alex ran upstairs and looked at me and shook his head.

"She's not talking, we need an ambulance and fire people to get the door open. hurry up, we think she's dying." Alex said and hung up. "Wow." He said and walked down stairs.

"I fucked up Mel. I fucked up really bad. I need her and I love her so much. Mel she can't leave me, us." I said and she nodded then hugged me tighter.

"Your a dumbass Austin." She said.

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Awh Mel and Austin moment. Is this okay? It was intense to write but I hope you like it :)