The journey of Hartbig

We're fine.

Grace's POV

What now? Currently, I'm looking at the tv and following the 'no signal' sign float around the square box. But what about after that? I'm not crazy, I don't just convince myself that i'm pregnant for the fun of it.

After drifting away from my thoughts and slouching further and further down the couch, I hear a knock.... It's probably Scott.

"Hey, Grace"

Fuck it.

"Hey, Scott, come in"

"I just wanted to come and see how the appointment went"

"Really?"

"No. Hannah came round before she went to go and your food. She didn't want me to tell you that because I don't think she wants you know how much she doesn't know how to help. I mean, she came to me"

"That confused the hell out of me for second. So what are you doing here?"

"It wasn't just you that thought you were going to be a parent"

"Okay, true"

"Are you doing alright?"

"Yeah. If it wasn't meant to be then it wasn't meant to be. I'm just sorry that I got your hopes up. I know how much you want a family. Thank you for them flowers and that card by the way"

"Oh...Yeah.  The flowers. Listen, I'm sorry that I wasn't supportive of you two. I know we haven't been a real couple for months, I don't know why I felt like it ended all of a sudden. And you don't need to apologise, it happens"

"It's okay. I never intended to meet and fall in love with someone else. I tried to love you like I did before....before everything happened"

Oh no. His put his hand on my knee. I know I have my head down and I look generally sorry but I'm not. I just felt like I owned him the feeling that I still care. This sounds harsh but I don't.  I fell out of love with him ages ago,  I forgot about him for fucks sake, I mean, if that's true love then shit.  I make eye contact with him and hold his hand that is on my knee.

"I'm okay.  Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. At least this way we can both get closure"

You. You can get closure.

"Excaly" I smile. "Listen, Scott, I think you should get going before Hannah gets back"

"You sure you don't want company whilst she's gone?"

Just leave.

"No, I'm okay. She'll be smothering me with simpithy for days. I need some time alone before she starts"

Wow, Scott.  It wasn't that funny.

"Alright, have a good night." His still giggling, getting up. I get it Scott, it's a simpithy laugh. You can stop now.

I swung the door closed after him, letting out a sigh of relief. I know it was with the best intentions but I really wish Hannah wouldn't have done that. If I'm being honest, I just didn't want to talk about. Not with Scott, not with Hannah. I'm embarrassed by this point, I put everyone through excitement and worry and my unstable ass got it all wrong. I am okay.  I think.

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Just 15 minutes later, I hear Hannah trying to open the door. How am I going to play this? Should I get it out of her that she went to Scotts or just let her have this one. I know she means well. 

She comes through the door with a ball of energy.

"Did somebody drink 5 red balls whilst out?"

"Nope"

"Okay"

Yeah, I'll let her have this one.

"Hey, Scott came round"

"Oh really?" She put the bags on the side and walks back to me.

"Yeah, he wanted to see how the appointment went"

That charming smile has warmed my heart, any shitness that happens from here on out, is going to be so easy to get through if I have her by my side. 

"How did he take it?" Her voice was faded behind my thoughts.

"What?"

"How did he take the news?"

"He was fine. He understood and that was it"

Her smile is just growing bigger and bigger whilst she walked towards the kitchen to put the take out on plates.

"I'm glad. At least now he has closure instead of being mad that I came along"

"That's exactly what I thought" I stood up as I raised my voice in excitement.

"Do you want to watch a film?"

"Sure, what do you want to watch?"

"You pick"

Hannahs POV

There wasn't really much traffic so I was there and back within 20 minutes. I still see Scotts car in the driveway so I wait until he comes out and I drive around the block so they can be alone. Grace probably knows that I spoke to Scott but I'm just going to play it like I had no idea. It could have helped her. I hope it helped her.

I'm noticing Grace. How sad she looks, her fakes laughs at the parts of the film that are not funny. Somethings wrong.  She's says she fine but I can see it, I can see it in her eyes that all she wants to do is burst out in tears. For myself? I have no clue what I'm feeling. Sure, it would have been start a family and I had am image of me making breakfast whilst my two favourite girls are sitting at the table and Grace teaching her ABC. But I'm fine. My thought track was cut off by the sound of Grace's voice.

"Do you want another drink?"

She puts her head back to look at me whilst asking the question.

"Let me get them, I need to pee anyway"

"Okay"

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Grace heard a bang, a "Fuck it" and then a thud coming from the bathroom. She sat up in panic "Are you alright in there?"

"Yeah, I'm fine" Hannah shouted back "The fucking shower head broke so I fixed it but I broken it even more. I'm fine."

Grace replied through her laughter "Alright, just be careful. I love you to much for death by shower head"

She then smiled, sitting back down, turning towards the tv, invisioning Hannahs eye roll from her comment as she tried to fix the shower.

There was at least 5 minutes of silence between the two.

"Fucking fuck fuck" Grace heard after another thud.

"You know what, we have a bath" Hannah said calmly, exiting the bathroom.

Grace watched as Hannah came from the bathroom to the couch with a smirk. "I'll call the guy in the morning. Oh and baby?"

"Yeha"

"Drinks?"

Hannah sighed with grin as she jumped back up.

"How are doing, Grace" She asked, facing the wall with her back towards her girlfriend.

"Took you long enough to ask"

"I'm sorry. I just..." Hannah sat back down, closer to Grace

"I know" She starts her reply by putting a hand on Hannahs knee. "It's okay. I'm fine. You know, this sort of thing happens. If wasn't meant to be, then it wasn't meant to be.  Maybe we will come across something better down the road"

Hannah smiled as her heart dropped.