My Missing Puzzle Piece, (Katy Perry And John Mayer Fanfiction).

26- I Am Just A Sucker For Pain,

(John)

Softly someone tapped on my shoulder making me turn around my head slightly to be met by the gorgeous Hudson eyes of Angela, I hum and she leans down to my ear and whispered. "Katy is refusing to eat, can you go see what's wrong?"

I nod gently and shift myself off the couch where I sat for the past forty-five minutes. Angela gives me a soft smile and I walk up the stairs, taking big footsteps and skipping a couple of stairs as I walked. Arriving upstairs I turn right and walk to Katy's room- which had a white door with pastel colored flowers here and there, it's pretty cute.

I gently curl my fingers into a fist and knock on the door lightly. "Angela. I don't want to eat, please. Leave me alone it's all what I am asking for," Katy groans and I furrow my eyebrows quickly. "Baby?" I say opening the door and she looks at me before staring back at the window, where she previously stood.

I made my way towards her as she stood with her navy blue zip-up sweatshirt and a pair of yoga pants. I take a step back and shut the door behind me to give the both of us some privacy hence we really needed it right now. I continue to walk towards her and wrapped my fingers around her wrists to pull her closer.

Looking up to me, her eyes were a little red and she failed wiping her tears completely off as I saw some tear stains on her cheekbones. I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her in for a hug which she accepted by wrapping her arms around me. I feel sympathy towards her once she rests her head against my chest and closes her eyes just like she was asking for me to never let go. As much as I wanted to ask her if she was alright, I held back my question and placed my hand on her neck-length hair and stroked it with my fingertips.

No words had to be said, I just understood what's going on, I really did, but I wanted her to tell me, I wanted to make sure. "What's wrong?" I lift her chin up but she continues to look down, "Baby," I chuckle softly before she placed her head back on my chest. "I am fine, trust, I am alright," she says and I look at her in disbelief, I wouldn't say she's lying to me, but a more proper word was she is trying to 'push me out.'

"Baby, I am asking you one more time okay? And I want to you to tell me, yeah?" I comfort her by using my fingers this time- instead of using just the tips- and let them massage her scalp slowly. I continue to massage her scalp but she oddly remains her silence- before I could even catch up with her odd behavior, she lets out a loud broken sob and placed her hand gently on my chest and shoved me away gently.

Walking, she wiped her right eye to remove the tears and grabbed her iPhone and unlocked it quickly. I sit on the bed as I try to comprehend what the hell just happened. Before I could even think, she threw her phone somewhere on the bed and I grab it to see what is she trying to say that she can't explain.

'C'mon babe, you know I was stressed at that time and you may have denied wanting a baby, but you wouldn't stop angering me and sometimes I can get uncontrollable. I want you back, I want you, I really do,'

Disgusted, I stare at Katy and she bit her lip harshly, I could even see blood escape her lip before she quickly wiped it off. "I don't believe him," she shakes her head and walks towards me- still standing and her arms were crossed just under her chest. "I love you," I spit bitterly and she looks away and continues to cry- breaking my heart into smaller pieces considering how broken I was. How hurt I was to see her like that.

"I love you too John, I fucking- I am afraid to lose you, I am just putting you in my problems and you have to deal with me! Both of us know that! John, you have a lot of stuff to deal with! Admit it! Tell me I am a fucking burden in your life! Tell me!" She harshly shouts kicking at the floor and stomping her feet aggressively. More crystal tears falling from her blue eyes, she didn't know it, she didn't know. I kept repeating to myself.