Explosive princess

chapter 31

I shut the door behind me and for some damn reason I began to cry. I went the corridor back down to the living room. "Stop crying Alex. He won't change because you had sex with him! You let him get to your heart!" "I fucking know that CeVe! I fucking know that I fell in love with this stupid psyco! I fucking know it myself!" I screamed, but regretted it a second later. Brad just came around the corner and saw me. "Are you okay?" "Uhm... Yeah.." I whipped my tears away and ran past him.

I stood in front of my 'hospital room' and wondered why I went back here. I pushed the door open and saw all the vases with the flowers on the table. I went over to it, took a vase and threw it against the wall opposites me. I took another one.... The flowers and the vases were scattered across the room. "He fucking played with me!" I yelled, again and again. I messed up the entire room, scattering everything on the floor. "Miss Alex!" I heard Brad yelling my name. "Shut the hell up!" I threw a cup of coffee at him. "You all tricked me! You knew what he was doing! You fucking knew that he manipulated me!" I ran over to him and slapped him hard. "Miss Alex... Please! I thought he had true intentions." "Blah blah blah blah!" I began to laugh and turned away from him. "I really thought we were something like friends..."  I walked through the room. "Maybe the better option is to leave..." "No Miss Alex! He's not mad because of you! He's angry because of himself!" "Bullshit Brad!" "No! He thinks it's his fault! That's why he's this angry asshole!" I couldn't believe him and I didn't wanted to. I pushed Brad away and stormed off to my room.

"His fault... What a bad joke!" I went up and down in my room. "You don't know what he said. Maybe it's true what Brad said." "Oooh no CeVe. J has no feelings and he never will have any. Obviously I made a wrong decision.. All this here is a big bad joke! It was a mistake to join Joker, to let him get to my head and to fall in love." I screamed at myself. "But you feel something for him! C'mon Alex... Not this Harley girl was his weakness... You're his weakness!" "Oh c'mon man! How can you believe in something like love? What makes you believe that the Joker could have feelings? He's an sadistic psycho! He lets people suffer!" "And still you love him... So there is something like humanity in him that makes you feel like that." "Bullshit!"