Repeating Apologies (Austlan Cashby)

I'm A Monster

Alans POV:

As I wake up, I hear his snores again.

Im confused at first, then remember last night. I had had a dream again. And this time they tried to take him away from me. I remember how when I woke up I was crying. Then through the blur I saw his figure. I had clawed at his body, pulling him into my bunk. I probably left scratches. I open my eyes a bit. Im laying on his chest and I see already red puffy claw marks on his tattoed skin. Damn. I feel bad. Ill bet they hurt to.

Im such a dumbass sometimes.

" Alan... We have to get up baby."

" No." I groan... Wait. He just called me baby

" Yes." He chuckles

" Its to early in the morning for this shit."

I pulled myself out and streatched bending backwards until my back cracked and my finger tips brushed the floor.

" How the fuck do you do that shit?" Austin said

I looked and saw he was starring at me in pure amazment.

" Years and years of practice."

I shrug as I strut into the kitchen

I can hear Legs Up by Jeffree Star playing in my head right now and I want to listen to it. I jog to get my Ipod. The song blasts from my one headphone I have in.

I whip around the kitchen being a slut to the song.

Twerking may have been involved.

I did a one knee pose to the slow part....

I shoot up my head practicly snapping but I still manage to hit the reveal perfectly.

"I want your legs up!" I strike a pose

I hear clapping... Oh... God... No.

I turn to see Austin with this really big smile on his face.

I unplug my headphones and Mr. Diva starts playing.

I start danceing again.

I start head banging and Austin grabs me from behind and lifts me off my feet and spinning me around. I laugh as he starts to sway.

" Hahahaha Austin! Put me down! Hahaha!"

" Never! I like the way you feel. "

" Austin this just got really gay. Put me down."

" Maybe I like being gay with you. " He shrugs

All I could do was blush and stare at him.

He slowly put me down. Then even slower he unwrapped his arms from my waist and let his fingers trail along my sides before he stepped back.

I just walked away sort of in a daze. I went to my bunk and shoved my face into my pillow.

"AUSTIN CARLILE HOW YOU FUSTRATE ME!!!!" I screamed into my pillow

I hear Aaron laugh and Tino fall out of his bunk.

" He touched you, didnt he?" Phil asks

" Maybe..." I rolled over

" Ah.... He has the power with those hands doesnt he?"

I slowly stuck my head out of the bunk to look at Phil.

" Whaaaaaaatttttt????" I drag the a and t out

Phil blushes, " I liked him for a bit... " he shrugged, "Like you do. "

" WHO DOES ALAN LIKE????!!!" Austin screams and runs in

" AARON!" Tino yells at the same time Phil says Austin, and I say no one.

"I herd my nameeeee." Austin smiles

" Run. " Tino and Aaron say together to Phil

I launch out of my bunk at my bandmate as he sprinted for the door. I almost got his hair but he got out of the door before I could, slamming it behind him.

I slammed into the door. Lets just say I couldnt breathe as I lay there. Black spots covered my vision as I tried to keep my eyes open.

" Your so stupid." Tino laughed

" This isnt funny! He could have broken something by hurting himself!" Austin yelled

" Like what?!" Tino yelled back

" MY HEART YOU FUCKER!" If I could have gasped I would have

Austin bent down and started to brush my hair away from my face.

" Wake up..." he whimpered

I think I just blinked. Because he sighed. And then he walked back to the bunks. I herd something crash then the world is gone.