Repeating Apologies (Austlan Cashby)

I'm A Fucking Lier

Oli's POV:

When I woke up there was lightning lighting up the room.

I jumped, cuddleing deeper into Austin's side.

I'm being stupid.

I shouldn't have made him stay. I should have told him to leave. What if Alan finds out about this?

Thunder boomed and I winced, covering my ears.

" Olive?" Austin's worried voice came through

I whimpered and pressed my hands tighter to my ears. He pulled them away and I scrambled to put them back.

" Oli whats wrong?" He asked

" Its so loud." I whinced as the sky lit up again

He let go of my arms so I could put them back as the thunder shook the bed.

" Shhhhhh.... Just go back to sleep. It'll be okay." Austin craddled me to his side

I almost shuddered at I relized how hurt Alan would be if he found out.

I didn't want him to be hurt. I didn't. I really like Alan. Hes such a good guy.

I closed my eyes tight and pressed my face into his shirt.

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Hes gone.

I woke up to find the bed cold and the house silent.

No one walking around downstairs. No one in the bathroom.

I got myself up out of bed and went downstairs. The light shone through the windows and I hissed at it.

Being me, I hated the light. It showed me to much. To much truth. Some things should be kept in the dark.

I decided I didn't want to eat. I wasn't in the mood.

When I turned from the fridge I noticed a white peice of paper on my black table.

I leaned on the table to read it.

' Sorry I left you. I got a call from Aaron. He needed me to go to Alan. I hope you understand.

Love, Austy'

Beside the nickname I gave him he had drawn a heart.

I sat down in the chair and let my head hit the table.

" Ow." I groaned

Why did he have to be so fucking flirty and not relize it?

Why didn't he just wake up and say, " hey, maybe I shouldn't put cute little hearts after my name on a note I'm leaving for my ex!!"

I groaned again in fustration. Then I got up and went up to my room to change.

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Austin's POV:

I had to leave.

Aaron hadn't actually called me. I wasn't needed.

I just needed to get out of there. I used to wake up next to Oli all the time.

When we were really close, and when I say really close, I mean makeing out on his bed then apologizing. But then doing it all over again the next day.

I was on my way to the hospital now. I wanted to tell him. I also felt that I shouldn't because he would be so sad and he was trying to recover.

So when I walked into his room I acted as though nothing happened. " Hey baby." He smiled at me from his bed

" Hello there, gorgeous." I smiled back at him

" I herd you had to help Oli home. Is he alright?" He asked, innocently

" Yeah. The docter said he just needed to rest for a couple days. He'll be fine."

" Aaron told me you guys used to have a thing." He blurted

I felt like I had lost all ability to breathe.

" Yeah. W-we used to. N-not anymore though." Why the fuck did I stutter?!

" Good. I want you all to myself." He smiled, obiously not bothered

" Yeah. I'm all yours, baby."

I hate myself for this.

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Sorry. Its just a filler. I still love uuuuuuu