Repeating Apologies (Austlan Cashby)

Product Of A Murderer

Alan's POV:

Austin leaps off of me and flips over the back of the couch. I grabbed our clothes as I run to the bunks. But Austin had other plans. He grabbed my waist and yanked me into the bathroom.

" Okay babe... We gotta hurry." He whispered into my ear

I grabbed my boxers and he grabbed his.

" WHY THE HELL IS THERE BLOOD ON THE MOTHERFUCKING COUCH?!" I hear Tino scream

"Turn around." I command him

Austin turns. All over his back are red scratches. Some are bleeding and others are puffing up.

" Shit..." I hiss

" What?" He asks

" I cut your back all up!" I gasped

Oh. My. God. My breathing was picking up and I fell against the door. What have I done?!

" Babe its okay! I made you bleed to!" He said trying to calm me

I smiled at the thought... The feeling of his teeth...

I just fucking had sex.

Alan stop.

I shook my head.

" I know." I whispered

He kissed me, then when he pulled away, he whispered into my ear," I like it when you make me bleed."

" Okay. We need to stop this. I would love to tear you apart on this floor right now, but we cant. So stop. Fucking. Teasing. Me." I hissed

He chuckled as he pulled on his jeans as I pulled on mine. I opened the door and slipped out.

" AW HELL NO. " Phil screamed as he grabbed my arm and pulled me to the living room

" THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT?!" He pointed to the couch

Blood splattered it here and there. " Shit happens." Austin says

I look over to see him with a shirt on smileing

I dont have a shirt on. Oh dick.

" YOU FUCKING ATE HIM DIDNT YOU?!" Phil yelled at Austin

" Possibly."

" HES MINE!!" Phil yelled

Aaron grabbed his wrists and held him back. I looked at Phil. I have never seen him so pissed.

And it scared me a little, to be honest. I took a step towards Austin. But I didnt need to.

He was there, his strong frame infront of mine. His right arm was slightly streatched to the side. In order to protect me.

" Who?" Austin said

" ALAN! HE WASNT SUPPOSED TO LIKE YOU!" He was crying

I took a hold of Austin's arm and stepped forward.

" Phil?"

He was shaking so bad I wasnt sure he could even answer me.

" Phil I'm sorry." I whispered

I turned then, and ran to the bunks. I pulled the blankets over my head and felt the tears fall.

Why cant I ever do anything right?!

I cant even love right!!

" Baby?" Austin poked me

" G-go a-way!" I yelled

I herd him sigh, then he crawled into my bunk with me. I tried to push him out. I didnt want him to see me crying. Or weak for that matter.

He flipped me on my back and pinned my hands to my sides. The blanket had come off of my face so all the tears shown.

" Alan. Tell me whats wrong."

I refused to look at him.

" Alan your being a child."

I still didnt look at him.

" Phil isnt mad."

I glanced at him but looked away again.

" Phil said hes sorry."

"Im a terrible person." I whispered

" No your not."

" I made Phil cry."

" Alan that doesnt make you a bad person."

" I said I was a terrible person."

" They are the same thing."

I shook my head.

" We have a show in an hour."

I sighed.

" Austin if you want me to come you have to let go of me."

He let go of my wrists slowly.

Then he turned hopped out and left.

I ran a shakey hand through my hair. I got up and pulled on a red tank with our band name on it and dark skinnys. I pulled on my vans and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and hair quickly. I looked at myself in the mirror.

" You discust me." I told myself

" Well you dont discust me..." I hear Austin whisper

Damn.

I sighed again for what felt like the hundreth time today.

" I thought... I thought we had a deal, Alan." He said shakily

" Austin... Its not like that.."

" We promised.. We promised that we would talk to each other if we started feeling down." He said

" No... Austin. I promise its not that bad. I just... I feel really guilty."

" Why? Because you like someone?" he narrowed his eyes at me

" Yes..." I whispered

Like? He thought I liked him? I dont LIKE him. I LOVE him.

" What?" He asked

" I said yes."

" No. After that. You whispered something." I shook my head

I pushed past him to get a drink of something. I grabbed a waymter bottle out and started to take little sips.

" LETS GO!" Aaron screamed

We all ran out behind him.