Repeating Apologies (Austlan Cashby)

Glass Hearts

Austin's POV:

Its been three days. Oliver is supposed to be here today.

Or so he said.

I'm not sure he'll be comeing. He has his own thing to do, writing and whatnot.

Although, I'm not sure why he wouldn't be able to come.

Unless of course, he doesn't want to.

The last time I talked to him face to face was when I told him that Hannah had tried to kiss me.

Lets just say he wasnt mad at her.

He was mad at me.

For some ungodly reason, he decided to show up at my house and tell me I was a god damn lier.

Okay, one. I never lied to him.

Two, I never lied to him.

Three, I NEVER FUCKING LIED TO THE GUY.

I'm not sure why this is so fucking hard for him to understand.

But any way, I'm in the waiting room, pacing back and forth.

Alan hadn't woken up yet so I'd like to get a word in with Oliver when he gets here.

I herd the door open to see him standing there, nose slightly crinkled because if the hospital smell.

It was his least favorite smell.

He spotted me amd walked over, ackwardly staring down at his all black Vans.

" Hi." He said in his cute accent

" Hey man. Glad you could make it." I said happily and pulled him into a hug

I held him close for a second then let him go.

" Yeah. I'm sorry about Phil, mate... I should've seen it coming." He rubbed his right eye with his sleeve

" I don't really think-"

" He kept tryin to stab me when he knew we were close." He made quotaion signs with his fingers

" Close?"

" Friends. More or less."

" You don't consider me your friend any more?" I knew I shouldn't feel hurt, but I did

" No. I mean yes I do! I'm jus' really confused about life at the moment." He looked down again

" I understand. I'm not sure if hes awake yet, but maybe-" I was cut off by his lips crashing against mine

I stood shocked. He pulled away, looking as shocked as me.

" Oh my god. I am so fuckin sorry! I didn't mean... I just.. Fuck. I'll go." He turned to leave but I grabbed his arm

" Look, I forgive you, alright? Just... I know Alan wants to see you." I gave him a weak smile

He nodded. Then he walked to the door I told him Alan was behind, and disapeard.

Well, fuck.

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After about a hour, Oliver came out looking extreamly happy. Then he saw me and his smile faded and his steps slowed.

Once again, well fuck.

He went to the doors still looking down.

Then he tripped over his foot.

He fell to the floor.

" You okay?!" I ran over to where he was

I picked him up, he seemed okay. He winced when he put weight on his left foot.

" Shit... I think I hurt my fuckin' foot." He muttered

" Good thing we're at a hospital, huh buddy?" I rolled my eyes

I helped him stumble over to the counter.

" Take this and fill it out. Then bring it back." The crabby nurse said

" I think I just sprained it. I kinda tripped." Oli said

" Read that sign." She pointed to the sign above her head," Does it say I give a rats ass?"

" Nope. But I do." I herd someone say

A guy with a white lab coat walked over to us.

" So you tripped, eh?" He sat Oli down in a chair

" Yeah... Wasn't paying attention."

" Hmmm... Well.... Looks like you just pulled the muscle out a bit, s'all. Nothing serious. Have this young man help you to your vehicle and drive you home. You shouldn't be on it for a couple days."

" Oh um thanks." Oli blushed

" Any time." He winked and took off for the doors again

" Looks like we get to spend more quality time together." I smiled at him

" Yay." He smiled back weakly

I walked him out of the hospital after telling Aaron what happened and where I was going. I gave Alan a kiss before leaving.

I helped him into his car, careful of his foot.

I got in the drivers seat.

As we drove down the road, I noticed him looking at me.

" Whatcha want, Olive?" He rolled his eyes at the nickname

" Nothin. Just thinkin is all."

" Thinking and staring at me." I smirked

" Yup."

It was quiet the rest of the way. Until I decided to break it.

" So... You still with Hannah?" I asked, pulling into his driveway

" Why you wanna know?" He narrowed his eyes at me as I parked

" Just wonderin. I havn't talked to you in a while. I don't know whats been going on." I shrugged

" Oh... Well then no. I'm not. She ended up confessing to sleeping with about.... A few... Guys and like one chick. So yeah... I told her that we couldn't be together." He sniffled and rubbed his nose on his hand

" Aw. Oli its alright. I'm sure," I took a deep breath," theres someone out there that will make you happy." I looked over at him

His eyes were glossy and he threw his arms around my neck.

" Thank you, Austy." He whispered

I nodded and hugged him back.

I helped him get out of his car after that and into his house.

" Could you help me up the fuckin stairs ya think?" He blushed

" Course."

Then I looped my arms around his bsck and his knees and picked him up into my arms bridle style.

Once I climbed the fucking stairs, I layed him down in his bed.

Just as I was about to walk out, he grabbed the hem of my shirt.

I turned back.

" Don't leave me... For tonight. Please?" His eyes pleaded with mine and I knew I couldn't just

say no

So I crawled onto the bed with him.

It didn't take him long to cuddle into my side.

He was warm against me and I hated myself for doing this.

And even more for what I did next. I bent down set a light kiss on his lips.

" Goodnight Olive." I whispered

" Austy?"

" Yeah?"

" Do you still love me?"

" Of course."

You never truly stop loving you're first love.

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AUSTLIVER THO