Repeating Apologies (Austlan Cashby)

I Know It's Tough

Austin's POV:

I walked out, tears falling down my face. Aaron grabbed my arm, trying to stop me.

" Austin you can't!"

" I can't what?" I snapped

" You can't go into that hole again!"

" I'll be okay, Aaron."

I turned and walked out not looking back.

When I got home, my eyes went to Alan's shirt on my couch. He had left it there the last time he was here.

I picked it up and buried my face in it, inhaling his scent. I fell onto the couch, crying into it.

I hated myself for what I had done.

Why would I even do something like that?

I walked to my bathroom, hands shaking as I first fingered through the cabinent.

When I found what I needed, I popped the cap and dumped a handful in my palm.

I took them all one at a time. By the time I took the last one my vision was almost gone. A knock on my door sent me to try and walk down the stairs. In the end I fell, not being able to see.

I rolled over, groaning in pain.

I couldn't breathe. My shoulders were being shook, but I couldn't move.

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" Austin." Someone is calling my name, as if through a faze

" Don't do it. It's not your time." I could almost see a face

" Who are you?" My eyes widened

She laughed, a tinkling sound.

" I'm your mother you silly!" She opens her arms and I run into them

" Austin you have to go back." She murrmered

" I can't leave you!" I said

" Alan loves you. What would your fans say? You have to stay strong for them. You can't try to kill yourself just because something doesn't work out. Alan's so torn up. He thinks your gone. So do the docters. Go, Austin. Prove to me that you really are my son. Prove you can be strong for me." She kissed my cheek lightly and walked away

The light that had been shining behind her got more and more distant. Tears ran down my face as I started to hear shouting.

" OH MY GOD HE'S COME BACK!"

" HE'S ALIVE!"

" HE'S NOT STABLE!"

" PUT HIM TO SLEEP!"

I felt myself leaving again.

Aaron's POV:

As I cried I herd people yelling from Austin's room.

I could hear his heart monitor beeping. He was alive.

" Alan he's okay!" I yelled, running into his room

This just sent Alan into another round of histarics.

" No! They said he was dead!"

" Yeah but he came back! I herd his heart beating!"

Alan kept crying.

" Sir. He's come back. He's going to be okay." A docter said

I let out a sigh.

Thank the Fucking God. I felt someone throw their arms around me and I hugged them back just as tight.

It was Alan. Gasping and crying into my shoulder.

When he pulled away he started laughing histericly and hugged me again.

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