I can't breathe.
Your face haunts my dreams,
Filled with anguish and despair.
Screaming 'why's and 'betrayer'
I thought you wanted me to be happy.
Flashes of that stranger I saw yesterday go through my mind,
Like a film stuck on repeat.
Terror floods my mind and body.
Images of that night go through my head.
Why?
Why?
Why?
I scream your name,
Reaching out to you.
Your hand slips though my own,
Slipping like sand between my fingers.
Not again, God please, why?
Your face fills my vision,
Red as blood with anger.
'You forgot me'
No.
No, I never did!
I cry this out,
Begging,
Pleading.
But you don't listen.
You fade away as I cry out your name again.
Suddenly I'm in someone's embrace,
Soft whispers of comfort flooding my ears,
And sending warmth throughout my body.
It feels so wrong.
I push you away.
"Stop!"
I cradle my head in my hands as I curl into a ball.
"Stop..."
My voice is weaker as tears flood my vision.
"Stop it..."
I hear you shift and feel your hand on my shoulder.
"Stop what...?
I look up at you,
Feeling so lost and more broken than I was before.
"Stop making me love you..."
Your expression turns to one of shock before it goes blank.
"Stop it?"
I shiver as you suddenly chuckle, lowly,
Darkly.
"No. I will never stop."
You lift my chin, violently,
Making me flinch at the roughness.
Fear fills my mind as I look into your eyes.
Darker than the usual brown I always loved.
"I will make you love me more.
I will have you love me so much,
You won't be able to even BREATHE without me by your side.
