KATNISS'S POV
I had awoken from the terrible dreams I always have and thinking about how much i miss those strong muscular arms wrapped around me. I cant stand not seeing him anymore i look at the clock and it is about noon. I walk downstairs and make some tea and turn on the tv to watch the news. "Peeta Malark and Katniss Everdeen are over?" Is all i can hear over all their mumbling. WHAT?!?! I have always wanted to hear this before! Before until now!!!! The moment i really actually start to have true feelings for Peeta they just decide to question were over?!? Anyways how could the Capitol find out we don't talk or sleep in the same bed or even visit each other anymore! I hope to god Peeta doesn't ear about this!!! All i can think about right now is how much i want Peeta and how much i want hime to love me like he always has. He probably doesn't anymore. I get so sidetracked that i haven't even noticed the phone was ringing! I run over and pick it up. "Hello" My voice sounds very rusty."Hey sweetheart" said the voice in the telephone. And i know exactly who this is,Haymitch. "What do you want!" I shout sounding grumpy which i didn't mean to do at all! "Are you watching the news?!?" He asks sounding like i hadn't said anything wrong the first time which I'm relieved about. "Yea" i then he doesn't even respond. "WELL DOES PEETA KNOW?!?" "Of corse not! He never watches the news you know that! He doesn't want to watch his dream lover on tv of them kissing and knowing it's not true and wishing it was! You know how upset he gets! He just wants you to be happy katniss!" He says angrily and i wonder why. "Well why isn't it trure?!?" "Because you dont love him!!!" He responds. "WELL WHAT IF I DO!" This time i dont scream with anger, I sound very upset which i am."because I do lov-" i stopped and hung up the phone and my eyes started watering but I'm trying to hold it in. But then a tear lets loose and i cant hold it in anymore! I start balling my eyes out when someone walks into the door. I dont even care anymore. I feel to sorry for peeta because i actually realized how sad I've made him over the years. This makes me very upset to even realize what damage I've done to poor Peeta. "Katniss, are you alright" my mind goes blank. Did i just hear what i thought i hear. I can recodnise this voice anywhere.this was Peetas voice. This is the only person i wanted to see right now and i am so happy he came! I ran over to him as fast as i could a little to fast! I came crashing into him as we fell over and caplopppp! We fell spelt on the ground! We both smile at eachother. I love his smile and i miss i too. I just want to have his lips so bad but i just cant he doesn't never think i like him! I never talk to him or even come over. So what would he think if i just came over and kissed him!?!? "Hey peeta" "hey kat" he responds i love the nicknames he gives me. I look into those beautiful deep blue eyes he has and i start to let out all of my thoughts out loud not even knowing that i am. "Peeta, I love the way you stroke my hair and wrap your arms around me when we sleep, i love your smile and you beautiful deep blue eyes" i pause and he starts to blush a bit and it makes me smile as i continue "peeta i love yo-" i stop myself knowing that i cant just go on not seeing him for moths and say peeta i love you! "I have missed you ALOT!" I corrected myself trying to give him a little hint but not being to obvious. He grins and replies, "I've missed you too" now i really want to kiss those irresistible lips of his, but i hold back my urge because i know i cant no matter how bad i want to. Now i finally know how Peeta felt all of those years, wanting someone so badly, but knowing you cant do one damn thing about it! I hate this feeling, and it brings tears to my eyes knowing that this is how he has felt basically as long as he can remember! "So... Wanna get off of me now?" He asks jokingly but i know he wants to get up so i do anyways. We get up and i give him a big hug and i never want to let go. But we eventually do and i look back into those deep pretty eyes of his and smile. Im so happy to see him again i cant even believe it!
PEETA'S POV
I look into those beautiful grey eyes and give her a big smile. I want to just take her away to a place far away where it's just me and her and live there for the rest our life's. But i know this will never happen. I just couldn't bare being away from her anymore. I wondered why she had been crying when i walked in. The news was on and there was a spilt cup of tea all over the floor i walked over and picked up the cup from the floor "sorry the house is a mess" she apologized. "Dont be!" I replied but i did agree with her, her house was a disaster! If my mom saw my house like this, i think she would kill me!!! We walked over to the kitchen and I put the cup in the sink. I looked over at Katniss. Okay something is seriously wrong with her! She is just standing there watching me, smiling and she actually looks happy for once! "Are you alright?" I question her. "Im perfect why? Whats wrong?"she replies "oh nothing you just seem a lot happier than you usually are!" I say in shock. She gives a little giggle. I cherish every laugh she does because i love to her her happy, she is rarely ever happy around me! "I was serious about that though" "about what?" Im really confused "About me missing you! I'm really sorry i haven't ever called or visited even though you were just 10 footsteps away! Im sorry I have always been so rude to you when you have always been so unbelievably nice! Im sorry I'm so terrible to you!" She starts to tear up, and i wonder is this what she was crying about when i first walked in? Maybe i should have knocked! "I walk over to her with my arms open and she imminently tally into my arms and sobs onto my shoulder. " i lean my head on hers and it brings tears to my eyes to see her like this! It's all my fault too! "No your not a terrible person katniss!don't say this about yourself!" "But peeta you know its true! All of those times you loved me and i told you i didn't love you i loved gale! Thats hurt you more than anything i know it did and it hurts me know that i think about what i said to you! Because i didn't love you then! And i was so stupid not to! But who cares if i didn't love you i still said it! And anyways I'm in love with you now and i never had the nerve to even tell you!" Wait what the? Did she just say.... No she didn't... "You what now?" I look her in the eyes "nothing it's just-" i cut her off, " Katniss i know this sounds crazy but i came here to say all i could think about every night is you... Every night i cant fall asleep knowing that you were next door and i never came to talk to you and how much I've missed and loved you! And i thing i love you now and need you now more than i ever have! Katniss i don't care what you say about me but i love you unconditionally" i couldn't believe the words that had just popped out of my mouth but katniss seemed to like them! It was to late and something else was to... I grabbed her waist and pulled her close as she hung on to the hair on the back of my head and out lips touches softly for a long time, until her tongue asked for a passage and i let it happen. I never wanted to stop and i started to have that feeling again... The urge of wanting more, but i knew i couldn't because i had already done enough!
