Wroetoshaw One Shots

Burnt out (Minishaw)

What do you do when you feel like you have no energy to do anything?

I feel like I'm fading away, It's not right

There is so much going on, I want to enjoy it, but all I want to do is sleep for years.

How am I supposed to get back to myself, when I don't know how to turn back time?

I can't do this by myself, I'm like a candle.

I'm a candle that is on it's last flames

I'm about to burn out.

Never to be lit again.

I lay in my bed, I've just finished editing my video's for tomorrow, but I don't have any more energy, I can't even think about going downstairs to get something to eat, I'm starving, but I just don't have the strength in me to get up and go downstairs. I feel like I'm failing, youtube is beating me, I used to find it so easy to do three video's a day, but with all the extra projects that we have been doing as The Sidemen have really taken it's toll on me, I don't have as much time as I used to. I can't edit my video's as well as I did before, I just have so much to do, I'm still planning Upload with some off the Sidemen and that is a huge thing, we are also trying to sort out a stadium for our second charity football match, we all want to do it again, It was so fun the last time.

My thoughts are going million miles an hour when I hear my phone ring, I barely have the energy to turn on my side to get my phone from the table next to me, I need a brake, I desperately need a brake, but I don't want to disappoint anyone, I always give Harry slack for not uploading, I need to keep up.

"Hello" I say in a rusty voice, I did not even bother to check who was calling me

"hey Si, where are you" Harry asks me, he sounds worried

"what do you mean where am I?" I ask confused

"you forgot?"

"what?" I ask, worried

"you were going to come over and film with me" Harry tells me, he sounds hurt

"no, that was tomorrow right?" I ask, frantic

"no, you said on the 30th, It's the 30th." Harry informs me

"shit, you are right, is it OK if I come over now, are you to tired to film now" I ask, not telling him how tired I am.

"yeah I'm down if you are down" Harry tells me and I just know that he is smiling on the other side off the phone.

"I'll be there in about 20 minutes, are you OK with that?" I ask

"yeah cool, I'll be waiting"

"see yah soon" I tell him as I hang up the phone, then I get myself semi ready as fast as I can and then I drive over to Harry's flat.

I get to Harry's flat and knock on the door, he opens it strait away so I know that he has been waiting, It's also been like 20 minutes, since I said I would be here. I'm always a bit late.

"hey"

"sorry, I'm late" I smile at him as I give him a hug

"you look tired, are you OK?" Harry asks strait away

"yeah, just been a long day, I will be fine"

"are you sure, we can do this tomorrow"

"no, I can't tomorrow, I have meetings all day for Upload" I tell him

"OK, do you have any idea's on what to film?" he then asks me

"I was just thinking something quick and simple, like react to things."

"sounds good, I was thinking about doing vax packs"

"Ohhh Harry"

"what scared?"

"yes" I tell him as we make our way to his room, but I just want to lay down on his bed and just go to sleep, I'm about to fall apart here.

Harry is still setting up, we have gotten a #hashtag going, and we are ready to start filming in about 10 minutes.

"are you ready?" Harry asks me as I'm almost nodding off in the chair

"yeah sorry" I say as I rub my eyes

"want a red bull? To keep you awake?" Harry asks me

"no, I wanna go to sleep sometime tonight" I laugh at him

"are you sure you are up for this, like, you look so tired"

"I'm already here, we can do this"

"when do your meetings start tomorrow?" Harry asks me

"at 11:30am" I say

"so just about 9 hours from now" Harry calculates in his head and I just nod.

"let's just go to sleep then, wake up at like 9ish and film then, you look like you are about to faint or something"

"I've not eaten after 3pm" I confess to him

"what, Simon, you need to start taking better care off yourself" Harry tells me as he points me to the bed.

"I had video's to film, I'm so behind"

"then miss a day, your health comes first"

"I don't want to disappoint the fans"

"well you are not any fun to them dead, now lay down, I'm going to get you something to eat" Harry orders me, I'm now taking orders from a 19 year old.

Harry comes back in 4 minutes, he has made me a bowl off coco puffs.

"don't tell Sarah, I stole hers" Harry tells me and smiles

"your secret is safe with me" I laugh as I eat the hole thing, I feel a bit better after eating.

"now, let's go to bed"

"I think I'm OK to film now"

"no, you are going to bed, good night" Harry tells me as he turns off the lights and takes my phone away from me.

"you are so bossy"

"good night Si" Harry tells me as he turns to his side to face me. I can see him smiling, he is so pleased with himself right now. He did the right thing, stopping me, I can't continue doing things like I have been, I need to take care off myself to. You only get one body, you need to take care off it.

"thank you Bog" I say and I see him smile before I drift off to sleep.