Wroetoshaw One Shots

Safe me (Minishaw) Pt. 3

Simon's POV

They take him from my hands and roll him inside to the hospital, I don't get to go with him, I'm not family, I just get told to sit down in the waiting aria and I just have to wait and see what will happen to him, I had managed to get him to the hospital before the sleep took over so I probably saved his life, I hope I saved his life, I don't want credit for that, I just want him to be OK. 

I'm just passing my phone between my hands when a nurse comes to find me, she does not look to happy so I'm getting very nervous

"are you with Harry Lewis"

"yes I am"

"we managed to pump his stomach and get everything out, he is still asleep, but he will be waking up shortly, you can go and sit with him if you like" she tells me and points me in the direction that I'm meant to go in.

"thank you" I tell her as I stand up, thanking god that Harry is in fact alive, I managed to get him here on time, and thank god that I decided to go over there last minute to see if Harry wanted to hang out or something, thank god that I found him in time, I don't want to lose him, I can't lose him, not over something like this, I feel so mad that I had not seen this coming, I should have seen this coming, he has been so sad for months now, this was just a matter off time now that I can actually think about it, I'm also so mad at Calfreezy and Callux for not seeing anything wrong, I don't want to call them, but I know that I have to. 

I walk into Harry's room, he has a lot off monitors strapped to him, he is apparently not out off the woods yet, after affects might still get him and they have to keep a close eye on his vital signs. I just sit down next to him, holding his hand and I just want for him to wake up, and he does couple of hours later

"hey Boggy, how are you feeling?" I ask him as I see his eyes open

"crappy"

"they managed to get everything out off you, you are going to be fine"

"so I failed"

"what?"

"I failed this like I fail everything else, I can't even kill myself right" Harry whispers 

"don't you dare say that, you should have have done this in the first place, you have so much to live for, there are so many people here that love you and care for you, you can't do this to us, we can't lose you"

"I'm just in the way" Harry starts to cry

"you are not, don't you dare say that, you are never in the way"

"I feel like that, I don't know how to shut my brain off, it keeps telling me all these horrible things about myself and how sad I am, and how much off a loser I am, I just can't take it anymore"

"if you are feeling like that, come talk to me, I will always listen to you" I tell him 

"I don't want to burden you with my problems"

"I would much rather be burdened by them than never hearing anything you say ever again, Harry I don't want to live without you"

"why?"

"I told you, I love you"

"but that is just words Simon, the problem is that I don't believe that anyone does"Harry tells me and I can see how much he is struggling to talk about this, I feels alone 

"will you believe this then?" I ask as I kiss him

"really?" he asks me as we brake apart 

"yes, really"

"that I believe" Harry tells me as he grabs me and pulls me in for another kiss

"I will never let you suffer alone Harry, you can always come to me"

"thank you"

"you are welcome" I say and smile

"ohh and Simon" he starts as he looks down

"what?"

"thanks for saving me"

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