Sleeping Romance (GxG)

35. You are cute when you are sleeping

Riley and I haven't talked much about what happened, which is over a month ago. I am just too scared to talk about it, because if I do, then well I don't know what would happen, but it can't end well. We need to though. I can't go around worried all the time and it's not long until I move over to college.

I am done packing. Riley has been helping. She has been great. She even forced me out shopping. Riley might not see what kind of clothes I am wearing, but she likes my clothes to be soft. 

Might have something to do with why she always cling onto me. I don't mind that she chose the clothes, but I picked the colors and if I didn't like what she found I told her honestly what I meant.

Right now, we are on the way with the last bit of my stuff. My angel's hand is lying above mine, but she is half-asleep. It's very cute to watch her. I have to wake her up, because we are almost there. 

I don't like to wake her. There is nothing more beautiful, than to watch her sleep. I love waking up next to her. The smile comes automatically when I see her face. It's like seeing the sun shine in the morning, but a thousand times better.

I park the car and stare at my beautiful girl for a little while, before I wake her up. Like always, she is wearing her sunglasses, hiding her gorgeous eyes.

"Riley?" I whisper and shake her a little, but she won't wake up.

"Riley?" I say louder and shake her harder. She moves a little and yawn before she turns my way.

"Are we there?" She asks.

"Yeah." I chuckle and get out to help Riley out of the car.

"You are cute when you are sleeping." I compliment her, but she just shakes her head. I laugh it off as I get my stuff out of the car. Riley lays her hand over mine and we walk together to my room.

When we started to move my things here and went out shopping, I noticed that people look at her. Not in a bad way, but more like with pity. I don't like that, which might make me sound awful. I don't, but I think it's because it's uncomfortable. Because I can see it and well, maybe, I feel guilty that I can. I just wish people could watch Riley, just like they do with others.

I unlock the door and step inside the messy dorm room. My roommate, Amber has just laid her boxes on the floor and not bothered to put them in place yet. I put my things on the floor and guide Riley to my bed, so she won't stumble on anything.

She lays there, while I put my clothes and books in place. It looks like Riley is deep in her thoughts. She is very quiet and she is lying motionless. I wonder what she is thinking. I finish packing and find my way over to Riley. She smiles as I lay above her.

"Are you okay?" I ask as I push her sunglasses away from her eyes. Then I lean forward to steal a kiss from her soft lips. Her warm hands find its way under my shirt and on my waits. I don't stop her. I want to know how far she is willing to go. After what she told me a month ago.

"What you think about?" I whispers as I feel her hands move further up on my ribs.

"You." She answers.

"What about me?" I ask and she bites her lower lip. She does that when it's something difficult she has to tell me. I don't know if it's a cute thing or a bad thing. It really depends on what is it.

"I want you." She tells me and my mouth almost drops open. Words can't seem to find its way out of me. I don't know how to respond. It's hard to answer her.

"Drew, I want you." She says again. I really wish she could see the look on my face right now, because it says a lot.

"Baby, you're not ready." I tell her, but she clenches her teeth, which means she is irritated.

"I want to." She argues. I shake my head, even though she can't see it. I can see it that she is not ready. It's all over her face and the fact that she didn't even want me to touch her for a little while ago. Then all of the sudden she wants to do it. What am I supposed to think? My eyes widen of a thought. Of course. She is scared of losing me. I am starting college. There are parties. There are girls everywhere. At my age and over my age. Riley is afraid I would find someone else if she don't do it with me before I start here. I am really stupid.

"Babe, I am not going to sleep with you," Now she is getting mad, which is cute, but not good.

"I know you're scared of me starting college, but I love you. I would never leave you or cheat on you." I tell her and I can see that I am right that she is frightened.

"I'm not going to have sex with you, until you are ready for it." I say final and lean down to kiss her forehead.

"Okay." She just answer, so I am not going to bother her more about it. I stroke her cheek with my thumb. When I do that, she closes her eyes, like she does right and not long after she would fall asleep. I think she is exhausted, most likely, of all the heavy thoughts she has had in her mind lately.

"I love you, Riley." I whisper, even though she is sleeping.