Ian Hecox: The Man Who Saved My Life (Smosh)

9

When I closed my door I immediately heard footsteps coming. "Xhex, why are you even mad at me?!" Ian yelled through the door.

"Go away, Ian. I want to be alone."

"Just tell me why you're mad."

"I'm mad because you think I'm crazy for worrying about your guys' safety!"

"I don't think that."

"Yes, you do. You won't even let me help."

"We never stopped you from helping with anything!"

"Ian, he could have already killed Kalel's mom, or worse, hunting us down right now!"

"Xhex, everything will be fine. I promise you, no one will hurt any of us. Kalel called her mom, she's fine. She said your dad left, but didn't say where he was going."

"That's worse! He's coming to find me now!"

"No he's not. Just please open the door." By now I was crying. How did he think what he just said was comforting? I was even more terrified now.

He must of heard my sobs because he started talking again, softer this time, "Xhex, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you like that. Please come out."

"Can you just leave me alone for a little bit?" After a few moments of silence I decided he was finally gone.

How could he think I'd be fine with all this? My dad, who isn't even a dad, he doesn't deserve it, is probably looking for me at this very moment. He'll end up hurting the only people I have anymore. I miss my mom. She would know what to do right now. I wanna go to her grave tomorrow. That'll be the only time I'm talking to Ian for awhile. To get him to take me. I don't understand why my dad wants to see me. Does he want to kill me? Take more abuse out on me? But why? I don't understand and it's frustrating me. Bringing my anger issues out. That's another thing about me that's messed up. I have anger issues and this isn't helping, I'm gonna have an anger surge and break something. I think I just need to go somewhere to cool down.

I grabbed my jacket and opened my door. I walked into the living room to find it empty. I at least need to tell someone or they'll freak out like when I left last time. I went up to Ian's door and knocked, footsteps shuffled to the door and it swung open.

He gave a small smile before he hugged me, "You know, I was a little worried about you. It's my job to keep you from your depression as often as possible. I really don't want you to suffer because of him."

"Thanks but I'm fine. I just wanted you to know I'm going to go for a walk. I just need some fresh air for once."

"Go ahead. As long as you come back."

"Of course I'll come back," I stepped back from him and became serious, "You mean a lot to me, I can't live without you. I love you."

"I can't live without you either, I just worry about you. I love you, too."

"I'm just gonna be gone fifteen minutes. Don't worry," He gave me a hug before I walked out the door. I don't know why he is so worried about me leaving him, I couldn't do that. He knows my feelings for him.

I stepped outside the door and closed it, walking towards the sidewalk. I've got a lot of thinking time to myself, and I really need it. I really do think I love Ian, even though I've known him for only about a week. He actually saved my life, and made me feel as if all the times I tried to commit suicide didn't happen were because I was supposed to be with him. I normally wouldn't believe in that stupid, cheesy destiny shit. I especially wasn't convinced because of my mother and fathers relationship. I was walking for about ten minutes when I felt someone grab my shoulder, and I instantly went into defensive mode. I punched whoever just grabbed me and they stumbled back, I saw it was a man but his face was turned away, "I don't want to hurt you," he said, "I love you, and I want to make up for all the things I did. I'm a new man. I promise." What was he talking about? Who is that? My questions were answered when he turned, and I saw the one man I didn't want to see. My father.

I turned to run but he caught my arm in time, "Wait! Just give me a chance, I want you to forgive me. I am so, so sorry. I know I wasn't a father to you and I don't deserve to see you, but I would love the chance to. Please, I'm begging for your forgiveness." I stared at him with anger in my eyes, his had complete sadness.

"Why should I?"

"You really shouldn't, but I'm praying you will."

"What do you want from me? You left, it's your fault! I can't believe you! I hate you!"

He stopped to look at me, "Do you really feel that way?"

"Of course." I spat at him before walking away as fast as I could.

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A/N: Thank you guys so much for reading this book. It means a lot to me.