The first time we met
That day that will never be removed
From my internal memory
I saw something special about you
Which shall never be forgotten.
I doubt you even remember the words you said
I thought I meant a great deal to you
Little did I realise that I was....
Just another experiment in your laboratory.
Loving you caused me so much hurt and pain
You made me love you
You made me trust you
You made me give you my heart.
Loving you caused me to not love myself
I would sit alone and become depressed
I blamed myself for the things that you did
I didn't see myself as important
As worthy or precious.
Loving you caused me so much suffering.
You took my heart, placed it in your mighty gigantic
hand
Then you crushed it
Taking all of the blood and bit of air that I had left.
You were my illusion, my fantasy, my innermost desire.
You tricked me into believing that you actually cared.
You deceived me in the most horrendous manner
But most of all,
You refused to love me the same way that I loved you.
What did I ever do to you?
What did I do which was so wrong?
Was this God's way of saying "You have received your
Karma"?
Why did you ask me to love you if you were not willing
Willing to give me what I needed from you?
I don't hate you, I could never hate you.
Hate is a powerful word and I'm not cruel
Cruel to that extent that I could resent you.
When I was younger
I was taught to never hate anyone
No matter what that person did to me.
You should know that from this day forth
I want to be away from you.
You have made me the person that I am now
And I am not the weakling
That you created.
I'm stronger than any heavyweight athlete
I'm wiser than any rocket scientist
Best of all, I'm relieved that I do not have you.
Loving you was a mistake that shall never be repeated.
Loving you was a sin and it was the decision that I dread.
One day you will remember me
One day you might wish that you had loved me better
One day you might meet someone who will treat you
Treat you the same way that you treated me.
The last thing I want to tell you is this:
Loving you did not stop me
It did not hinder me from finding love.
I hope I never fall in love
With anyone as heartless as you ever again.
YOU ARE READING
Naked
Poesía"The truth is better scripted than hidden!" This is a collection of poems that I wrote in my youth inspired by the many emotions and phenomenon entrenched in my thoughts. My vision is to inspire, enlighten and empower.
