Back in my days
My juvenile days
I saw the world
No..............I saw my world
The world I thought
Was bestowed onto me
By others people....them.
I envisioned an illusion
I was disillusioned to believe
I was made to perceive myself
As careless, worthless, reckless.
I found myself in a dark tunnel
Crouched and hidden, hiding myself
I fell in love with hating my own being
Because I gave people permission
To tell me I wasn't good enough
To convince me that I was idiotic
Too simple-minded to be human.
Surrounding myself with snakes and swines
Who told me that I was less worthy
To be given a life or a future.
The tears I wept, the insults I consumed
Instilling false truths and fables.
Making my mind mentally insecure.
At one point taking my life was optional
I thought living happily was impossible.
Suicide was an act neither alien nor foreign.
I pictured life as being pointless
Seeing myself as wasteful
As refuse to the rest of the population
Refuse? Yes refuse.
Disgusting, disgraceful, gross, grotesque.
I used to think these defined and lead me
On my path to the real world.
My faith kept me strong and serene
Keeping me balanced and unharmed.
I was alive because God cared about me.
He cared so much that He gave me you.
He took time and energy
Constructing, mechanising, engineering
A person as incredible as you.
I was ashamed to tell you
I was afraid to alert you
That I was ready to be yours.
I wanted your heart and you stole mine.
A beautiful thief who snuck into me
Creeping his way into my thoughts
Making me feel cool and secure.
Before you my life was bare and blank
A blank canvas with no picture.
No darkness shadows me or overcomes me
When you come my way
Only light and brightness surrounds me.
You took me out of a gloomy place
And put me in your spectacular garden
Blooming, blossoming, beaming
Everything was fresh and magical
Just like our love.
You include me and make me feel gorgeous.
It's like you know my senses
Before I do something, you predict it already.
You taught me to love myself
You showed me hope for tomorrow.
You showed me that killing myself
Would've been a grave mistake of mine.
You did and you still do
Make me feel important, feel needed.
I was chasing after frog and pests
When my prince was there all along.
I love thee and thank thee
For making me whole.
From this day forth
I am throwing away the old me
Replacing her with me.....a jewel.
People come and wither away
But I found myself a partner
A companion who wants me for me.
I want to release my inner person
And show the world how amazing I am
How wonderful I am.
A new attitude, a new idea of me.
No need for many people
No necessity for popularity
I want to prosper and give back.
I realise I was not put on Earth
To please or satisfy the masses.
I was placed to seek happiness
To strive for success and Salvation.
Thank you for everything
Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for helping me
To change and remove the old me.
YOU ARE READING
Naked
Puisi"The truth is better scripted than hidden!" This is a collection of poems that I wrote in my youth inspired by the many emotions and phenomenon entrenched in my thoughts. My vision is to inspire, enlighten and empower.
