The Unlikely Event of Falling in Love

Gone Baby Gone

 I looked Ethan right in the eyes and just stood there frozen. This had to be the worst moment and the best moment that could happen right now. On one hand, I finally got my feelings out with Jake, on the other, it doesn't look good for Ethan and I's relationship. I seriously couldn't believe myself and what I had done. Ethan has always treated me like a princess and I just kissed another guy and to make things worse he watched!! Ethan was totally going to just walk away but he started to walk towards me which made me stomach drop. I just stood there in shock as he got closer and closer to me, I felt like a deer being hunted and it actually sucked. This time, it was my fault and I needed to fix this. "Claire you should have told me that you didn't love me anymore and you had feelings for Jake." "But Ethan I do love you I am just really confused and don't know how I feel about Jake." "I trust you with everything and I thought you did. I would've trusted you to tell me what was going on except you hid this from me." he started to look really sad. "Ethan I do trust you and you can trust me I just didn't want to hurt you and I want you to know I care about you and you mean everything to me." "And you didn't think lying to me would hurt even more? I can't do this with you anymore Claire." "Ethan no you can't just walk away from us. This is just a bump in the road. Every relationship goes through this but we will get through it. I mean we are Ethan and Claire, we do everything together. Ethan please I can't loose you." I said with teary eyes. "You already lost me Claire." and he turned around and walked away. "Ethan you can't just walk away. I love you and you love me and that's all that matters." I said already in tears. If it isn't obvious enough he didn't turn around and come back to me. It wasn't how things usually happen. He didn't run to me and pick me up and twirl me around but this time, he just walked away. He was really done with this, done with us, done with me.

I went to the library and got myself together so people wouldn't come up to me and ask questions because that would make matters worse. I took out my computer and stuck the DVD he gave me of all our memories for my birthday and just watched it. I carried it around with me because it meant so much that I would never want to loose it. Just like that, there would be no more memories, no more pictures, no more videos and no more love. I lost Ethan and was never getting him back. I guess I have to accept that and move on or else it will be worse. If you love somebody let them go right?