The Unlikely Event of Falling in Love

Literally All the Feels

  I didn't see Jake or hear from him for the whole weekend. He was obviously pissed but I mean he caused this. He came to me and kissed me which, that was totally unexpected and he should've known I wouldn't lie to Ethan. You would think the scariest part of this would be Ethan beating the crap out of Jake but it wasn't for me. It was that I didn't know my feelings. A year ago I thought I would spend my life getting good grades and owning too many cats and when Ethan came into it I never thought there would be any other guy. But I felt something when I kissed Jake or when he talks to me or helps me with biology. Usually, you kiss someone in truth or dare and it doesn't mean anything and you would think that this kiss was just like that but it wasn't. Jake played with my emotions and for that, I was truly upset.

Monday rolled around and I was so anxious and shaky. Today I had to confront Jake and talk to him about Friday night...totally not how I wanted to start Mondays because they are already bad enough. The first period was Biology, of course. I walked into class and immediately saw Jake and took a seat far away from him because I didn't feel like getting ignored. To my surprise I saw him walking over to me out of the corner of my eye, I got shaky but kind of happy. Maybe he came to say he isn't pressing charges and will forgive me. I need to remember he kissed me but I kissed him back. No, my mind can't go there because it didn't mean anything...right? "Hey, Claire I think we need to talk like right now," Jake said sternly. Of course, my idiot self, came in 15 minutes early which gives us enough time to 'talk" sometimes I am so stupid. I sank into my chair and just nodded my head. "Look I should have known you would tell Ethan only because your that type of girl. The type of girl that tries really hard in school and tells the truth no matter what. That's totally not my type at all like seriously you wouldn't believe my dating history" Jake said cockily. He needs to shut up and understand I don't care about his love life. "But I'm really into you. More than I have ever been before with any other girl. So I'm letting you know that I'm going to fight for you no matter what. Even if that means getting my nose broken every Friday." he finished with a blushing smile. This seriously isn't happening that stupid smile Ethan does, he does it too? Why do guys do this to us? I mean come on it hits us right in the feels. I kind of smiled back because that made me really happy. He was going to fight for me, which was weird because no guy has ever fought for me. Ethan didn't have to fight for me it kind of just happened. I got overwhelmed really quickly and before I could say I had feelings for him the teacher came in and started right away. I couldn't focus at all through class because I couldn't stop thinking about how I may or may not have cheated on Ethan because I liked kissing Jake and wanted to kiss him more. Or how Ethan beat the crap out of my low-key second boyfriend because that can't be true. I needed air really fast so right after class ended I said I had to go and rushed to the outside park benches. They are usually really quiet and I just needed to be alone without boys. I sat down for about 5 seconds before I heard someone yell my freaking name. It was Jake, ugh totally not helping. "Jake I seriously can't do this with you right now," I said harshly. It took me two months to fall for Jake and two days to fall for Ethan so that must mean something. "I just want to talk to you and understand how you feel. Claire, I see how you look at me and smile back and..." he couldn't finish before I got so panicked and mad and cut him off. "I look at you that way because I feel something. I feel something for you that I don't want to feel because I'm in love with Ethan not you!! You need to understand that I can't be with you because I am in a serious relationship. Even if that kiss did mean something we need to forget it happened and move on oh and plus." before I could finish his lips pressed against mine. See this is where I screwed up because I couldn't handle myself and kissed him back...harder. Thank god I came to my senses and stopped the kiss before it got any further. "Jake you can't just kiss me like that...again. I mean haven't you learned from that already?" I said questioning him. "You kissed me back, this time, knowing it was me. You kissed me back because you have feelings for me too." and just like that he got up, smiled and walked away. And it couldn't possibly get any worse than that right? Well, I spoke too soon because across the park bench was a water fountain and standing right by that water fountain was, yep you guessed it, Ethan!