thoughts

stay

i wished they had stayed

but they didn't

none of them.

and i'm glad they can be happy without me

because i'll be gone eventually

when everyone can be happy without me

watching them

today

thinking silently to myself
"i would give all of me
for all of you"

you say you'd push me further up

but in reality

i'm not doing as great as
i thought i was
or
wanted to think i was

so
you can be fixed
you are
being fixed
i see it

and it makes me so happy

but i
i won't be fixed

and i can live without being fixed
but sometimes
i don't think i can
so

i don't know

i love you, day.
-em