Transcend

Chapter 9 Memorial Park

Gabi na pero we decided to stay sa puntod ni Former President Manuel Quezon. We talked about anything na concerns us at ibang tao. Ang maganda sa isang relasyon kailangan mo ding magtsismisan. We laughed magdamag about the funny stuff. Naalala namin yung first date sa park. There was a couple, katapat lang namin more or less 30 meters ang layo. Malabo ang mata namin so di namin maaninag. We are both curious bakit sila pinagtitinginan ng mga dumadaan. They’re both sweet to each other. Yung isa nakahiga sa lap ng isa. They talked as if sila lang ang tao sa mundo at kaming mga nakapaligid sa kanila ay mga puno, alikabok at insekto lang.
Because of her curiousity, Fatima wears her glasses and found out na pareho silang lalake. We are shocked to find out. Malaki ang katawan ng dalawa at di inaakalang gay sila. Will all due respect sa mga kapatid nating gays, lesbians at transgender, gulat na gulat lang talaga kami that time. Aminin natin na ang mga pangyayaring ito ay di pa normal sa lipunan. Akala lang talaga namin na ang magkasama ay babae at lalake.
After the reminiscing, I’ve finally told Fatima na I love her. Akala ko nun tatawanan niya ako kasi from the funny stuff to serious na korni na sitwasyon. Everything becomes serious, medyo madilim sa lugar na yun pero we felt like our soul illuminates making the place less darker. I told her how special she was to me, and she responds by thanking me. I hold her hands, she hold it tight. I hug her, she leaned on my shoulder. Then the magic happens.
It was automatic… and for the first time I sing a song to someone. I’m becoming romantic and also for the first time I stay in tuned. I feel the rush of energy as if our soul becomes one. The music serves as the medium for making it come true. It was the love energy, beyond reasons and contemplation. It’s as if the time starts to take slow and our heart began to beat as one.
She cried…
I ask why?
She didn’t answer…
So I ask again…
She thanked me for everything…
I love you Fatima, dapat happy lang…
I love you too Em… she smiles…
I love you more Fatima…
I love you twice more…
I love you more than you love me…
I love you 100x more than you love me…
I love you a thousand times…
I love you a million times than you love me…
I love you gazillion times Fatima…
After nun we laugh kasi walang gustong magpatalo saming dalawa…
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Pagdating sa bahay nagmamadali akong pumasok sa banyo… Yun lang kasi yung private place ko para ngumiti ng sobra… I feel loved… Ang gaan ng feeling… sobrang gaan na parang wala ng gagaan until I discover something na magpapagaan pa sa nararamdaman ko…