Dear Suicide...

V |If I Lost It| V

I may be wrong for writing this,

yet I continue on...

I want to lose it.

You know, that part of me that I can never regain once it's gone.

I don't want it, anymore.

I don't want to carry the virgin title.

My mouth is quiet,

but my thoughts are screaming to be set free.

Just being held one time would be nice.

Just one kiss.

One caress.

One time.

For once, I would love to have that hard, passionate depth from another being as our two bodies become one.

Maybe if I lost it (my virginity),

I wouldn't feel like such a loser.

I would finally feel like I've accomplished something.

But, I can't do that.

There's no one around for me to love.

I'm too odd-looking and out of place for someone to even look at me with the slightest bit of lust.

A girl can dream, can't she?

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