Dear Suicide...

Cry Hard (For Just One Night)

Let me cry.

Please, let me cry tonight.

If you can take me,

grab me tightly

and hold me to your heartbeat.

Let my eyes release a shower of pain,

like they've never done, before.

Give me a kiss of assurance,

so I'll know that tomorrow will be much brighter -

or at least a half of a shade lighter.

Let me scream.

Let me scream loud enough,

so that I can awaken those that sent my heart to its emotional death;

Let me squeal and yell

like a small child,

who is far from a peaceful state.

I almost want to lie on my stomach,

kicking and screaming about.

I want to lift my voice...

but I can't.

" Don't you dare take off that smile! "

" You'd better toughen up! "

These words are what I use to fight my tears.

They never work.

My tears always send me to a corner of defeat.

If you let me cry on your shoulder tonight,

I promise I won't be a bother, tomorrow.

I'll put on that little toy smile.

If there are anymore tears left,

I will save them for another time.