Raising The Flag. (Guardians Trilogy)

20. This brings back Memuries

Link
Josh and I haven't been on good terms at all lately. Loosing the baby has been the worst thing I've endured. It's been a literal week since Josh has been at the house. Him and I decided it was best we spent some time alone since what happened... However, today felt different, and somewhat lively. I was in my bed crying while reruns of doctor who played on the tv when a knock rung through the wooden door."go away Jax, please" I mumbled through sobs."it's not Jax" a clear male voice said. I opened the door to see josh standing there."josh?" I asked, my mood getting lightened. He nodded and pulled me into a hug and pushed us in the room. He kicked the door closed and we stood there hugging each other."josh, what are you doing here?" I asked curiously."I couldn't take it anymore.. being alone.." he said."being alone? You have Tyler?" I said slowly."yeah, but he's not you" josh said emotionlessly."I thought you wanted a break from me though?" I pasked pulling away from him."I don't know anymore link." He said with his voice elevated."josh.. Im still not okay and clearly you aren't" I said obviously." Do you just not love me anymore?" He asked yelling."I don't know, okay?! Loosing the baby has been hard! I don't know!"."so you don't love me?!"."I Do!". We continued to argue like this until we reached the living room. Everything was said so fast I barely remember what we said. All I remember was that it resulted with him leaving again. Jax had comforted me then granted my wish to call Preston. She did and I ran upstairs into my room and began hugging the pillow. I cried into it for what felt like an eternity, but I was eventually brought back to reality by a soft knock at my door. "Come in" I choked out."link?" I heard a soft, slightly accented voice say. I released he pillow and rolled over to see the ginger-brown haired boy standing in the doorway with a worried expression settled on his face. He took closer note to the tears stained to the pillow and the puffiness of my eyes, and ran over to me. I sat up on the bed and he sat next to me and pulled me into a hug. I wrapped around him and cried on his shoulder. He gently rubbed my back and rested his head on mine. I just cried, and cried.. until I couldn't. Even though I wasn't noticeably crying, I was still on his shoulder, with his head on mine. I grew tired, considering I had been crying for nearly an hour. Eventually enough that I fell asleep on his shoulder.
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I felt soft breathing on the top of my head as I slowly flicked my eyes open. I noticed an arm resting around me and the fact I was laying on a torso. I looked up to see I was asleep on Preston, or well was. I ignored the fact it was him and laid back down.. I hadn't really slept since the baby, so I was tired.
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I didn't wake up again till I heard someone bust down the bedroom door. I immediately jolted up and saw josh standing there shocked."Link?!" He asked examining Preston on the bed behind me."what josh?! I thought you wanted to be alone?!" I asked confused."oh no no no, you want to go and cheat on me after OUR baby just DIED?!" He said yelling. I jumped up out of the bed and ran downstairs. Josh and Preston followed."What the hell do you want josh?!" I yelled."I want you link! Isn't that obvious, I freaking need you!"."Josh all we do is argue! We need TIME, look just go." I said pointing to the door."We don't need time, we need each other" he said looking angrier."Josh, I need time"."but I don't, so why are you betraying me?!" He yelled."I'm not betraying you! We're taking a break josh!" I yelled."what if that's not ok with me?" He sneered."Well what If I NEED MY TIME AWAY FROM THE IGNORANT PIECE OF CRAP YOU ARE!" I yelled, having enough... but what followed.... shocked, hurt, and scared me.