I spend the remainder of my weekend curled up in my room in my oversized jumper and leggings. I've never felt so hurt before. So many bad thoughts are over taking my head. Did he use me to make Beth jealous? Did he see her there and find her more attractive? what ever it is it hurts.
He's called me half a million times and he even came by this morning but I ignored his calls and texts and I told mum I don't want to see him. What was supposed to be the best night of my torturous years in high school ended horribly. I'm glad there's only a week of school left.
My mum brings me a cup of tea and leaves the room as she hears the door bell, I hear brief talk but I don't bother trying to make out the voices.
"Issy love, you have a visitor" I hear my mother say, I also hear footsteps coming up the stairs.
"Mum, I told you I don't want to see A-"
I cut myself off as I see who the visitor in fact is. It's Beth.
"Can I talk to you?" she asks.
"Sure" I say, quite hesitant.
My mum leaves the room and Beth takes a seat on the side of my bed.
"Are you alright?" she asks sweetly. I am shocked.
"I've been better" I answer.
"Look, Issy. I have a confession" she says, she looks at me guiltily. I look at her, reassuring her I'm listening.
"Nothing's going on with Andy and I. The truth is, I saw you with him and I got jealous. I forced him into the kiss, he had already told me he's moved on and he likes you" at this point I'm not sure whether or not I believe her.
I think she realises that I need more persuasion, she begins talking again.
"I'm not lying, I felt so bad I had to come tell you" I can't believe after years of her being so cruel to me she doesn't want to see me upset.
She sounds so apologetic.
"Can you promise you're telling the truth?" I querie.
"Absolutely"
"Okay, thank you for telling me this Beth" I say kindly. After all, once apon a time we were friends, I still trust her word.
I expect her to get up and leave now that she's cleared her guilty conscience but she doesn't.
"I have something else to say" she says.
"Okay" I say still in semi shock, wht more could she have to say?
"I'm really sorry that I've been so mean lately. While I'm confessing I might as well say that I was only so mean because..." she takes a deep breath. "I liked Andy a lot, and he always looks at you in a way that he never looks at anybody else. Not even me" the last few words fade to quiet. I understand now.
"I'm so sorry Beth" I begin to say, she cuts me off.
"No, I'm sorry." she adds. "and I realise that all I really want is for both him and you to be happy. I've never seen him has gutted as he was Saturday night" she mentions.
I smile at her act of kindness, this is the Beth I know and love.
"I miss you" she says, the words are music to my ears.
"I miss you too" I reply, she hugs me tightly. It's the first time we've we've spoken in months.
She says she has to go but she says one more thing before she leaves.
"Please talk to him tomorrow" she pleads.
I nod my head assuring her that's what I have planned.
