Stay

The screams got louder and louder as my stage went up. Hearing the intro to state of grace I started to sing my heart out. For my lovely fans. My Swifties. My family.


It always feels like the concerts go by so fast. Yes it's exhausting but I really wish I could stay there forever and never stop singing.

At this point it was time for 22. The song where I "crowd surf" to the B-stage. Where I can get closer to the fans that are in the back of the arena.

"You look like bad news, I gotta have you.... I gotta have you!" I danced and my voice echoed through the speakers. Now it was time for he surprise song. Tonight I chose ours. Ed was sitting on the sidelines watching me perform. Waiting for his part to come song EHC with me.

Awh Ed. Him and his beautiful accent with his scraggly ginger hair. And his axing sense of humor. And his love of cats.

The crowd got silent. It was just me and him.

"And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos..will be ignored.. Cause my heart is yours." I couldn't help but laugh while I was looking down at Ed. That seemed to fit perfectly with us two.


Too bad he's just my best friend. I love him a lot more than a friend. But I can't tell him that because he has a girlfriend. And It would ruin our friendship if we broke up. And I wouldn't be able to live with myself. Ed is the best thing to ever happen to me.


All of a sudden that song was over. Now it's the hard part of the night. To look into Ed's eyes and sing a song that fits us so well and not fall more in love with him then I already am.


"WELCOME EVERYBODY, ED SHEERAN" I say over the screams. Ed runs up and gives me a hug. Oh the sparks flew right then and there.


"All I know is this morning when I woke, is I know something now. Know something now I didn't before..."


As the song went on I would glance over at Ed who was looking straight at me. I felt a rush of what go right to my cheeks so I spun around to the crowd.

Play it cool Tay, play it cool.
I thought to myself.


He cannot know. Have a crush on him. It would make things... Awkward.




Before I knew it I was singing WANEGBT. And the night was over.
After club Red I went on to my dressing room which happened to be right next to Ed's...



For about one straight hour I debated weather to go have an "icecream party" or to go to bed.
Ed has a girlfriend. I'm going to bed.