Stay

You belong with me.

Taylor's POV;

On the way to Ed's room my mom stopped me in the hall with tears in her eyes.

"Mom what's wrong!!???"

I panicked. My mom cries but they're usually happy tears and these tears weren't happy. I can tell.

"Taylor we need to talk. It's about your father..." My heart sunk into my stomach right then and there. I wanted to throw up. Because I know what this is about.

She took me into her room on the tour bus which is the main room. I thought my mom should have a nice one.

"Your fathers cancer is back sweetheart. He's at the hospital in Nashville," she continued. Tears were rushing down my face and all I wanted to do was fall on the floor. Crawl in a little ball and never get up.

She talked to me for the next hour trying to calm me until a knock on the door echoed through the empty room. It wasn't empty. It just felt that way. Without my mom spreading unconditional love and happiness everywhere she goes. It just seemed like everything was dead... The bed spread, the mirror, the flowers, the sun. Everything was a haze to me. I just wanted the earth to swallow me. I can't lose my dad, he's my rock.

"Taylor, it's time for your show. You need to get dressed," the manager told me whilst dragging me behind her. I tried to collect myself as much as I could but the tears kept falling. They dressed me and did my hair and makeup. I just stood there like a puppet while everyone worked on me. I walked up to the stage with tears forming In my eyes, I heard the intro to state of grace and a tear escaped my swelling eyes. I looked at my mom and mouthed to "stay strong" she returned it with a "it'll be okay, do good sweetheart." And the floor started to rise underneath me.

I'm usually just nerve wrecked but now all I could possibly think about was my mother. How she waited till right before one of my shoes to tell me this. When I was innocently going to eat with my best friend whom I have ditched. OH MY GOSH ED!!!! I totally ditched him. Well I'm sure he'd understand. But I can't w bitter against my mother. It's not her fault. At most she needs me. As I need her.

I started singing to state of grace and saw the crowd. After that I just stood there in awe of everyone cheering my name. I was in search for that one face I cannot love without. My dad. I'm used to seeing a bright smile I've seen all my life, but it's not here. And I feel hot tears falling from my face. And the screams got louder and louder.

I can't control the tears. I'm too upset.

"It will be okay" I heard a girl yell from one of the out seats. I look over to her and was about to tell her I don't think it will until I saw hope fill her eyes. And what seemed to look like scratches on her arms that reached out for my to grab. She wasn't just talking to me, she was talking to herself. I walked over to her and held her hand and told her

"Yes it will. And you are worth the stars to me. Stay strong my love." And she started to cry. I don't know what going on in her life. But I know we are both in pain and we both need those words.

Time flew as I kept looking at that girl. She was the one keeping me up there and okay. So were all the other 20,000 fans. I just tried to forget.

Tonight's song on the B-stage was fearless. But how ironic is that because the last thing I am right now is fearless. I looked over to see a little ginger beaming at me. I know this is one of his favorite songs but I can't sit here and lie to these millions of people because right now I'm not fearless... So I decided something else. I decided tonight I would sing Ronan.

"Okay so I thought of something.." I started as I strummed my guitar slowly. Looking at the crowd and the thousands of beautiful lights.

"Tonight I was going to sing fearless... But I realized before the show that is the last thing I am right now. Every thought in my mind at this very moment is fear. And I can't sit here and sing that to you. Making you guys think I'm fearless because I'm not. So I decided I would sing Ronan tonight but I don't think I can do that either. So I can just sing bad day by Daniel Powter.. Is that okay? Is it okay with you guys that I don't sing my song?"

Screams roared through the crowd and Iooked down at Ed to see tears in his eyes. Which isn't helping. I decided not to sing Ronan because I knew I couldn't get through the song. So I will sing what is actually going on right now. A bad day.

"You tell me your life's been way off line. You're Falling to pieces every time and I don't need no carrying on. Cause you've had a bad day..." I sang through the song and started crying but kept the song up. And gladly it was over. There were more applause then screams this time. Which made me give a weak smile to my fans. Then I sang begin again and now it's time for everything had changed.

I'm not dreading this moment.

"Welcome to the stage the beautiful and talented ED SHEERAN!!!!" I screamed into the mic as he walked up the stage with his cheeks burning Red.

He walked over to give me a hug as usual. But this time felt different. It was comforting.

"Love, why are you crying?" He whispered in our long embrace

"Can we talk later.." I sniffle as we pull apart. He shakes his head and introduces himself to the crowd as the guy that "opened up for Taylor earlier!"

We sang everything has changed and before I knew it i was saying goodbye to my beautiful fans. My Swifties. My family.