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﹝sebastian michaelis x schizophrenic!scared!reader﹞pt.2

what you wish
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hello again!! my exams just ended on Wednesday and I'm still mentally exhausted days later! I hope everyone enjoys this and their holidays as much as I will.

!!suicidal references!!

please point out any mistakes to me

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•your pov•
when I was younger and all these voices didn't drive me to the streets, I used to pass walls full of missing person reports. older men, younger women, children, there was not one "type" of person you didn't see. back then, if I was in the situation I'm in right now, I would probably be on one of those walls with my own black and white frame and description.

but that isn't the case now.

I'm in an unknown mansion with a young master and multiple staff and one of them just happens to be everywhere I go. I'm trying my damn hardest to not make a sound because god knows he has some otherworldly senses.

there was nothing down here except uneven cobblestone floors and animals that scurried away whenever I got too close to the shadows, but I was still looking for an exit. looking at my environment distracted me and I tripped, my hands hitting the floor with a dull slap and before I knew it I was staring back at myself through well polished black shoes.

"damn it."

"it is unbecoming of a woman to curse."

"you were unbecoming to begin with weren't you?" I forcefully stopped the shiver that ran up my spine as the butler I now knew as Sebastian stood in front of me. if anyone were to find out about this...even if I don't like it here, it's better than the horrid alleyways of London.

"what do you want?" he did practically follow me around, but only when he needed something. and he always needed me to do something.

Sebastian handed me a broom he produced from somewhere and pointed down the hall with grin that I would so much so like to sweep off his face. and as I looked down the dark, dank hall, another feeling welled up. it was too dark, and I could already hear voices. I grabbed onto the neatly pressed sleeve of his tail coat.

"w-why can't Finny do it?" Sebastian looked back at me and for once wasn't wearing a smirk, but a slightly more serious expression.

"I can not simply give more chores to him, but if I must I will." I was already running back down the hallway from where I came not a second after he finished his sentence. if he could find me anywhere, he would be able to figure out about this if I accidentally lead on more than I should. I just need to avoid him...

"if he doesn't drive you out, you'll do it yourself."

"there's no way he won't know. you're going to be thrown out again."

"it would be nicer to just die here, wouldn't it?"

I bit down on the inside of my cheek hard enough to make it bleed so I looked like I was crying for a different reason. I didn't even know where I was anymore, and it was unfortunate that I ran into something before I could throw myself through the door.

•third person•

"your feet will bleed if you run outside with such thin shoes. even though I had given you new ones..." Sebastian was at a lost as to how to care for the girl he now held in his arms. to even feel the need to take care of her was something new to him. Sebastian had met many people, most just as unfortunate as (y/n), and yet he felt he'd only ever want to truly take care of her. not even his master elicited such a train of thought like this.

"stop talking. I don't want to leave." he looked down at (y/n) who limply hung from his arms staring off at what looked like nothing. Sebastian couldn't see what her eyes were following.

"I have not said anything."

"I... trust him. he won't do that, right?" (y/n) had yet to meet Ciel, and the other staff were nowhere to be found. she could only be talking about him.

"Sebastian... isn't a demon..." Sebastian stared in disbelief at (y/n). how could she disavow what she wasn't supposed to know? to her misfortune, Sebastian knew why she was "denying" his true nature, but for now she didn't have to know that. it was obvious it caused her agony.

he set her down on her feet, kneeled, and ignored the odd feeling in his stomach that came from the close was between their faces.

"what could you possibly be on about?" when she flinched and when her hand held tighter to her sleeve to the point of the color draining from her skin, he sighed and let his head fall a little.

'I should not feel this way for a human.'

"I will not tell the young master of your... visions. but in return, I would like for you to not look so upset around me. it would be rude of me to put such a beautiful lady in dismay like that." in a fleeting attempt to comfort both (y/n) and himself, Sebastian reached out and reassuringly laid his hand on top of the one clutching the (h/c) haired girl's sleeve.

(y/n) looked at the red eyes that stared at her so intently, looking for anything that said he might be lying to her, but she didn't see anything. she saw what she wanted to see for the first time in a while. no almost reaching her end point before a wall was in her way, no voices drowning out the silence (y/n) wished she heard more often. only her, her thoughts, and the closing in of Sebastian's face as she leaned forward.

Sebastian had been with plenty of women, so many almost as pretty as (y/n), but never had he once felt pleasure like this from a simple kiss. it started as the heat of the moment, a short lived kiss, but neither of them could say that they weren't conscious of the need to hold more. to hold onto Sebastian's shoulder like a life line or to wrap his arms farther around (y/n)'s waist even after they had pulled apart.

it was new to both of them, but the more (y/n) realized she enjoyed the sound of someone else filling in the silence she reveled in so much the more she realized that she wished she could stay by Sebastian's side.

"if that is what you wish." (y/n) looked in disbelief at the growing smirk on Sebastian's unsurprisingly soft lips. she laughed and let the wide smile on her face make her cheeks sore because, if she could, she didn't want to forget the soreness that came from Sebastian making her happy.

and he wasn't going to let it die down in the slightest.

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this is finally finished! honestly my inspiration droughts are really pitiful even when you take out the fact I was doing testing

anyway, requests are still open but I'm also still on semi-hiatus, which might be a full hiatus sometime in January. that's only because  I don't know how the second semester will be like.