Lucas
It was around 7 and I sat in the middle of the bed with Leilani in my arms.
The room was quiet nothing but her light snores being heard.
What is wrong with me? I was wishing for this moment not too long
ago and here it is right in front of me.
Now it's hard for me to accept the fact that this I real.
My eyes lifted off of her and turned to Troy. He was slumped in the chair.
"Thank You." I said as if he could hear me.
Yn
After leaving the hospital I made my way to the childrens hospital.
I'm currently walking down the hall towards Leilanis room.
Approaching her door I heard loud snores. Maybe it's her nurse I thought to myself.
I pushed the door open seeing Troy on the sofa in the corner.
What the hell is he doing here?
Walking in pushed the door behind me. As the door shut he quickly jumped turning his face towards me.
Making me realize how hard I pushed the door.
His eyes quickly moved towards the bed, causing me to grow confused.
As I looked towards the right I quickly grew angry.
Seeing Lucas lying across the hospital bed with Leilani onto his chest.
"Why?" I questioned Troy.
"Aint dis watchu wanted?" He responded causing me to sucked my teeth.
"Seriously Troy this is-. "
"Mommy?"
I walked on the side of the bed attempting to grab her. But his grip tightened around her and his eyes quickly shot open.
Seeing that it was me his grip loosened, she climbed out of the bed into my arms.
"Are you okay?" I looked over her body making sure everything was alright.
She nodded while placing her head onto my chest and wrapping her hands around my neck.
Before looking back up I gave her a kiss on the check.
"What?" Lucas stared at me making me feel uncomfortable.
"Can we talk?" I ignored him and grabbed Leilanis clothes from the bed.
Seating her on the edge of the bed I removed the hospital gown.
Troy came over snatching the clothes from my hand. "Imma do it go'on and talk ta him?"
I side eyed him and turned to face Lucas. He got up of off the bed and walked towards the door.
I unwillingly followed him.
"I'm sorry, I promise to put aside anything I had planned, Imma figure something out ma-. "
"Don't." I said cutting him short.
"You've already made it clear, you don't want to take part in her life."
He blew out a breath of frustration. "Did I ask for a reminder? Can't you see I'm trynna own up to my responsibilities."
"Yea but how am I supposed to be sure you won't decide to leave." Becoming emotional I tugged on my bottom lip with my teeth while pulling my hair behind my ear.
He grabbed onto my hand causing me to look down. "Look at me." He said with a hint of sadness in his voice.
"I only want to make this right, I had the experience of growing up with both parents and I want her to also. I don't want to just pop up years later, with her hating me because of the negative words you filled her head with about me."
I sucked my teeth and pulled away.
"It's not even that it's the fact that you live on the other side of the country with another woman and a baby on the way. Where does Leilani fit in? I don't want her growing up confused."
"So thats what it's about your jealous." He chuckled while shaking his head. "You ain't tryna let me be apart of my child's live unless I'm apart of yours too."
I quickly wiped away the tear that threatened to fall. And watched as he stared at me with hatred in his eyes.
"Leave." I pointed down the hall.
"Why, you mad because the truth hurts!" He yelled causing me to grow more annoyed.
I can't believe he thinks I'm jealous there's no need to be jealous. He can take his words and all of his lies.
I really don't care.
