Jeffmads Oneshots

Solitude

I woke with a start; the vibration of my phone coming to my ears.

I sighed and calmed down my beating heart, rolled to my other side and picked up my phone to see my best friend calling me.

My finger hesitantly touched the green "answer" button and i gently put the phone to my ear.

The other line was quiet for about 2 seconds when i heard a loud yell "GOOD MORNING SLEEPING BEAUTY!!"

The phone immediately left my ear and landed with a "thud" on my pale yellow floor. I picked the phone up quickly with shaking hands, trying not to drop it again.

"Thomas can you be any louder??" i asked with a shaky voice. I heard laughter on the other line, a quick apology and just that sound of his laughter made me feel warm and nice.

There was another chuckle "So jimmy james are you going out today?" The nice moment was over.

I hadn't left my small apartment for two months. A really nice lady i use to house clean with drops off groceries, shampoo, toilet paper, etc.. for me whenever i ask her in a text.

The thought of me leaving my house terrifies me to my very being. I have nightmares at night, their devilish grins, mocking laughter, judging glances and the feeling i cant escape.

And so i stay here, in my own safe haven. Where i can breathe without checking if I'm breathing too deep or too loud. Where i can walk without looking behind my back to see if anyone was looking.

Its funny, the only people i actually can talk to are my housecleaning friend, Jenny, and my best friend Thomas.

While i shifted awkwardly on my bed i mumbled out a quiet "You know i cant do that."

There was silence then "James, you need to come out someday. I know its hard but at least try this time, please? Ill be there with you the whole time."

"Thomas, no i cant, I'm sorry i just cant." i quietly said, shrinking under the covers.

Thomas' voice spoke softly from the other line "Jimmy james your amazing I know you think people are whispering about you but they aren't. You wont get hurt outside when your with me i promise. Try for me at least?"

Warm. I felt warm and happy. I was happy in my safe haven but.......Thomas was more than my peaceful safe haven.

He was my antidote to this drug called life, every unpleasant thought, every anxiety attack, everytime when i asked myself "Do i look okay?" "Are people looking?" "What are they saying?" and lots more would be swept away by a smile across his face.

I thought about it for a little bit and really didn't want to come out. But i wanted to see Thomas, so i sighed "Okay.........okay ill go outside."

The rest of the conversation was Thomas yelling in delight and saying he would pick me up in about 10 minutes.

*7 MINUTES LATER*

*Thomas' POV*

I pulled in the drive way of my friends apartment and stopped my car. I smiled at knowing ill see him after a long time.

I met James when we were little dorks barley knowing what the word "because" meant. He was always there, always saying it was okay and the only one saying "You got this," "Don't listen to them," "Your a good person," and my personal favorite "You make nice macaroni cheese."

Smiling i opened my trunk and grabbed a dark green sweater with a small blue whale on the front. As i walked up to his door i hid the sweater behind my back and knocked gently on the door.

*James POV*

I opened the door slowly and looked up to see Thomas' face smiling. God he was gorgeous, i don't know how i became his friend. I smiled and ran into his open embrace, he hugged me tightly.

I didn't really feel that scared anymore. And i didn't even notice that somehow thomas was holding my hand. As we walked down the street he would whisper "its okay," and squeeze my hand from now and then.

I smiled knowing that its going to be better if Thomas is here, it was all going to be okay.