Forgive me, My Mrs. Choi (S.coups X Reader)

1.0: The Past

"Yah." I felt a soft tap on my shoulder so I turned around.

The rest of my group is in our dorm now resting, but I'm not. I can't rest even if I try. My mind keeps drifting away. I can't stop thinking about it. It's probably the worst choice I made but I don't understand why. I just feel it. It wasn't the right choice. Letting go.

"Hyung," I said seeing Wonwoo.
"Why are you here? Were you casted too? You'll be having a guest appearance?" He asked me.

We're in the set of their drama. It looks like they're taking a break from filming so this should be a good time to talk to him.

"Ani. I came to see Seungcheol hyung." I told him.
"Oh. I see. I think he's in that tent." He told me pointing at a tent nearby.
"Thank you."
"No worries. And, congratulations on the success of your group! Daebak! And, I like your songs especially the last track of your album! I love your part there!" He said making me sigh.
"Hyung, The last track is our rap line's song. I'm not included there."
"Oh. Oh. Sorry. I mean the second to the last. Sorry. I got confused." He said laughing nervously.
"It's okay. You don't need to pretend you like me. I don't like you either." I told him prankly. "Thanks anyway."

I walked to the tent without saying anything else. I didn't look back. I hate that guy. Because of him, Y/N lost her baby. He's too selfish. I know how depressed Y/N was after losing her baby. I don't understand why she forgave that guy. I wasn't able to stay by her side but I know it's painful for her. She loves Seungcheol and that child. What makes me worried is if Seungcheol loves her the same way. Maybe I made the wrong decision.

"Hyung?" I said as I entered the tent.

Two girls are inside the tent. Mini skirts, see-through shirts, high heels, bright red lips. I don't know what they are. I don't want to judge. I looked around and saw Seungcheol lying on a foldable bed. He's sleeping.

"Hi, handsome. Aren't you Youngsoo?" One of the girls said.
"I'm not interested." I told her knowing what she wants just by her tone.
"Well then, just call us when you get interested." The other girl said giving me a piece of tissue paper.

The girls giggled before leaving me inside the tent. I looked at the tissue. A phone number written with a red lipstick. It makes me want to throw up. Y/N's husband is in a tent with girls like these.

I remember that they were talking about Y/N staying home because she's pregnant. Is he really concerned about her? Or was he just locking her up in that house to keep her from knowing his dirty tactics? Is this guy a cheater? I treated him like an older brother.

"Hyung," I said tapping his arm.
"Hmmm?" He hummed turned away from me.
"Hyung, it's me. Wake up." I said trying to calm myself.
"He's tired. Don't wake him up." I heard someone so I looked at the entrance of the tent.

I thought we're alone now. I'm wrong. Sunhee is at the entrance. Kim Sunhee. A new actress. Everybody likes her except me. She isn't new to me.

"Why are you here?" I asked her.
"You, why are you here? I'm here because I'm part of the cast. Did you forget?" She said proudly.
"I have forgotten everything about you."
A smirk slowly formed on her lips. "That's a lie. You still hate me."

I hate myself. For loving her. It's a mistake, a sin against myself. I degraded myself for longing for her. I disrespected myself when I did things to have her again.

"I think it would be fun to hear you plead for me again. Why not try again? Maybe I will go back to you this time." She said.

I clenched my fist. Not now. Not here. Never. Y/N told me once. I should do things for myself, change for myself, not for others. I need to admit. Y/N changed my perspective. She revealed to me my identity I didn't know about. I'm not going to waste that gift from her on anyone especially Sunhee.

"I'm not interested." I told her just as Seungcheol woke up.
"Youngsoo, what are you doing here?" He asked me.
"Can we talk?"
"Sure. About what?"
"Not here. I don't want to talk to you around useless people." I said walking out of the tent.

I didn't look back to see if he followed me or if she was looking at me the whole time. I just want to erase her completely. Why is she here again?

☆Youngsoo's POV☆